My Hair

I love my hair.

It took me a long time to grow out, and to bring it back to life again. You know, after years and years of putting it through the torture of straightening everyday ever since i discovered the wonders of a straightener in seventh grade. It wasn't until probably junior or senior year maybe that i stopped going through the troubles of straightening my hair every day.

Sophomore year, i got a hair cut it was the shortest it has ever been since elementary school. It was only up to about below my collar bones, which isn't all that bad...but it looked pretty terrible because it was layered and short. So my shortest layer on my head was probably around my ear somewhere. I don't know, but i wasn't too fond of it especially with my awkward body and all. I just felt awkward. I'd have to say that it grew out nicely though.

So, i've been contemplating on cutting my hair short again after my birthday in August. Not hella short, probably just up to my collar bones again. But this time, i think i'll go with a hair cut that'll actually work for me -- hopefully. My hair is currently up to my belly button or so. This decision is a big decision, and many girls can relate. Our hair is our life, basically.

Truth of the matter is that, guys find females with longer hair more attractive. We as ladies, find ourselves more attractive with long hair. You always hear the regrets that girls have about a month or so after cutting their hair short, but you never hear a girl with long hair wishing they can go short again. I think it definitely has a lot to with how long it takes for hair to grow out again, and the decision to just go and actually cut your hair short aid an easy task.

My decision to cut my hair short is not yet set in stone...i'll see how i feel after my birthday. I want a change, but i don't know if i want to make that change my hair. I guess that's what stepping out of your comfort zone is though, to do what you're scared to do...

Well i posted a status on Facebook one night, wondering if i should go short or not and i got mixed responses from people. It's not like i'll really genuinely value their opinions to make or break my decision, but it was more to just see if anyone could tell me if i'd look dreadful with short hair. It is all based on the shape of your face, you know? I considered talking to a professional about it. Lol. Yes, this is really a big deal.

I got a text from someone that said, "No, don't cut off all your pretty hair" as though if i did, i wouldn't be pretty anymore. Or more like, if i did he wouldn't find me pretty anymore. Not to sound vain, but i really do get a lot of compliments on my hair. And strangely, guys like to play with it sometimes. Well i was sitting around and thinking, my hair doesn't make me who i am. Like India Arie said in one of her songs, I am Not My Hair.

Well if i cut my hair, and i'm no longer "pretty" to you then obviously you don't genuinely find me a "pretty" person. Because if you were genuinely into me for who i am, my hair should not matter what length it is. Is he telling me that he will no longer find me attractive? That he'd prefer that my hair stay long. I guess the new flash here is that i'm not here to satisfy the views of how you wish to see me. Sure, guys find it attractive when ladies have long hair...and i'll admit that i had a conversation with one of my girl friends saying that i wouldn't feel pretty anymore if i didn't have long hair. Most of the reason of that had to be because of the idea of beauty that is embedded into the society saying that long hair is beauty. Long hair is what sexy is.

Maybe a response such as, "you would still look just as lovely, even with short hair".
But i guess i don't really have someone that cares for me in such a way like that to tell me something so corny as that. "Simpin" shit, as some would say now a days...