where do i stop

After a while of eating the same thing over and over again, it just gets sickening.
Not saying fast foods, though sometimes those can be a bit much.

Talking about Candy. Not all candy though actually just this one in particular.
I got 4 packs of strawberry hi-chews and 2 packs of these strawberry gummy thingys. Asian candy, yakno? My friend gave it all to me. And oh my fcker it was just tooo much of the same thing. Yuuck. I feel sick of it now. It was good the first few pieces.

My mom told me that there is a limit to everything.
Like Prom for instance. Got asked again today to Milpitas's prom and i'm not quite sure if i want to go. I've been going to too many already. Well two is just enough for me. But my mom also just doesn't want me going...so i don't know what i'm going to do about that. I'll check and see and figure this out in about a week tho. We'll see. I mostly want to go just cause i hella want to see everyone again. But not just seeing everyone, this is seeing everyone all dolled up and nice. Shoot. Its been years.

At this moment, i really, kind of, lightweight wish that i had a guy. Someone there that will be there for me when i want someone to hold and cuddle with. Someone to love and will love me. I don't know. For the past whatevers i've just been anti relationships. Not sure why all of a sudden i'm just so in the mood for some lovin. Hehe. Too bad no one really gives me a chance in this world. Too bad i'm kind of picky. But not really that picky. Just i go for the wrong people. Yah, that must be it. But really? I don't know. I want them all. All the boys in the world. Yee. jkay.

Hi this is Steven Lee. My WHS prom date.

& these are my niggaas.

Someone should make a remix of Nothing On You ... beautiful boys all over the world...



I hella Lol'd. This shits hella funny.

God made heaven & earth & the rest was made in China

:)

WHS

Last night i went to WHS pom in Pleasanton.
It was hella more fun compared to Missions prom, for sure.

This time, the way i did my hair...i'm not really sure how i did it differently from the time before but my hair just looked kind of wild. Not like sex hair wild...okay well basically it just looked bad. Rofls, but it was whatever...i didn't care that much.

At MAC, my makeup was done by the manager. But...my makeup didn't even turn out that nice!! I looked hella weird & funky, i don't even know. I just didn't like it that much. What i didn't like most was that my lady basically caked on hella foundation onto my face...and on top of that she didn't even moisturize before starting! Sigh...luckily my face wasn't feeling hella irritated. It was worth it this time though, cause i got makeup. 58 dollars, got my makeup done + makeup. Not too bad? I bought lipstick,blush,eyelashes and eyelash glue. Too bad i don't really wear lipstick. & too bad i dont really like the lipstick i got. Damn..whatever though i guess.

Stupid Makeup though, i think it caused me to now have two ugly pimples on my face -_-

My sister was suppose to do corsages & boutonniere for a couple of couples that i was riding with but she was hella busy and was hella running late on making it. Lisa and I had to go to her shop and help her out with making them. Making those shit is hella boring. Rofls, i guess you have to have a passion for it to think its fun stuff. Well anyways, making that stuff took hella time. Caused us to be late and we fcking missed out on all the group pictures...like the limo pictures. Poor dates of ours had to stand out on that cause we weren't there. Was running hella late. So sad. ):

Arrived to our prom location and there were hella white people LOL. My group had the biggest limo. Yee (:
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I love these people. I love love love these people.
Prom itself was hella fun though. No lie.

& real talk, the people here know how to dance way better than people at my school.Haha. But i mean its cool. But i enjoyed myself. I really did.

No after party that i was able to hit up. Ended up just posting it on Hunters Top of the world with Josh, Dre and Lisa. AHah. We're so lame. We didn't really do much. It was hella too cold to step out of the car. But we all did a good job of entertaining each other. Hehe.

Sigh. I had a good ass night though. I love these people !!!!

I got home around 3 something. My mom was hella pissed off. She said i'm a bad girl. :/
BUT SHES SO HARD ON ME. UGES
Waiting for another fun night now.
....

i'm at my sisters shop right now. I just helped her paint a wall. Its tiffany b

Nurse Kathy

I would like to become a nurse. But then saying that i want to become a nurse is just so broad...the question now is, "what kind of nurse?" There are so many kinds of nursing positions, and i have no idea what it is that i want....all i know is that i want to be a nurse.

Nurse Kathy, yeah that's me.

So here is what i have in mind...
I'm not sure what the correct term for this is, but i believe it is Labor & Delivery nurse. Right? I'm not sure. But i was just thinking about it, and i much rather clean little new borns than old people. Even if its still hella gruesome with the blood and nasties...i think i rather do that. Yakno?

Then again, i don't want to be around babies all the time. I want to be able to work with people of all ages. Little kids, teens, and old folks as well (i just dont want to wipe their butts...) Because the whole point of me wanting to be a nurse is because i want to be able to interact with people as well as help them. Yakno?
I guess i really need to look into this. Haha.

In medical assisting, we watched Patches (i think thats what it is called) It was a really good movie, and i think that movie kind of made me realize how great it would be to be helping people out like this! So for now im settled with trying to become a nurse. I can't think of anything else i want to be.

So when i start college...this is what i'll want to major in.& what would this major be called? Oh im not even sure....

Went to Mcdonalds after school with Lisa today.

20 pc. Chicken McNuggets, Large fries, McChicken, McDouble, 2 cups of water & an ice cream cone. All for the two of us.

Total Calorie Intake? - 1260 Calories.
Oh boy oh boy. How healthy is that. Rofls. Sike!
But it was pretty good, hit our cravings. And we were hella mcfull when we finished eating.

Shoulda walked home to burn some of that off, but we were just too lazy after that. Lol.

Now im gonna have an ugly potbelly tomorrow for whs prom.
Which is tomorrow! I'm stoked. Kinda. Yee tho. (:

Youtube

Peter Chao is so adorable!
Too bad he isn't really that cute under those glasses and accent. Boooo.
What was his real name again? I forgot....



Doesn't this make you want to eat some Doritos now?
I'm hungry. How bout some Mcd's? I would love some chicken nuggets. Yuuum.



Ahaha. Shoot, sorry i'm not exactly updated with Youtube videos, but i just found this on tumblr. Roofls. This is pretty damn legit. I'm surprised that the employees didn't get pissed off. Then again, why would you get pissed off when someones rapping to you through the drive thru? Work is boring at mcdonalds as it is, so why not just enjoy some entertainment while working the Drive-thru? A guy rapping out his order to you doesn't really happen to often. Haha.


Gosh i'm sleepy. There are some banana nut muffins waiting in the oven for me!
I hope they turn out delicious. Hehe. (:

I'm currently waiting for my sister to come home so she can take me to go collect money for stuff...i just want to sleep already..

oh my goodness & its already 818. o:

God's last name isn't Damnit

Once asked - How has SPC changed your life?
Well something along those lines. I was never really able to put my thoughts out into words to give a response. But here i go, i guess....

Its all the talks, the retreats that SPC has. The way they go deeper into the meaning of "God is Good". I remember in Catechism class back in the day, the teacher would teach us out of the little blue book. But it was all so boring. Then i was little and didn't know much of the good stuff in life.

Well SPC opened my eyes to see up to the heavens. I felt like i got in touch with God. I found him in my life. -- Who knows what sense i'm making out of this. If i'm even answering the question...

Even if it seems like i have been going downhill, i feel like my life has lifted.
blahblah....

Bottom line. I found God in this Journey. I'm not a good Catholic, but at the same time i want to hope that i am. I miss church Sundays and i don't pray often. Though i should, i don't. The most that i can do is think about God, Jesus and Mary and talk to them in my mind.

I think about God to keep me sane. So my mind doesn't go crazy, so i don't get out of hand with my emotions. Ya get it though. I don't know. It is all making sense in my mind.

My sister told me that people who have a belief, like Christianity, arent as easily pulled into temptation, pulled into the rebellious life. Oh i don't know.

I'm a better person, better daughter, better sister and a better aunt.

Okay, i'm not very good with explaining myself. I know.

I painted my nail and toenails hot pink. its a bit bright for my taste. But its a fun color. Hehe.

purp.

Happy Birthday to you.
happy birthday to you happy happy happy birthday to you.

I want to shout and scream in joy. i want to call and text and mass spam your myspace/facebook wall with a thousand+ hearts. Sending out a thousand birthday greetings. I want to make you smile with joy that im here and i care, and at the same time annoying the crap out of you but knowingly that you don't really care that i'm doing this. I want to run to school tomorrow after first period. Scream and run. Scream run and shout with my arms failing in the air and scooping you up in a giant bear hug and attempting to spin you around telling you happy birthday. In a cute purple outfit...with a smile on my face and a smile on yours.

I would like to pick a day, any day. A day youre free. A day that you can. Whenever you would like! A day so we could spend with you. Its your day, and i want to celebrate. Cake? Yah, of course. Lets get some ice cream cake...we can be spontaneous. Do everything. Anything. Anything at all. Just come on now. I'm dying.

17 minutes into this day...i'm holding myself against my will to not say a word. Not a single word to you. Because thats just the way it is. Things aren't right, oh yeah it really sucks.

Probably thinking idgaf. Here i am spilling my feelings out. Course....

well happy birthday. as much as i want to be evil and hope you have a horrible birthday without me around...i hope you have a good one. filled with joy and laughter. i want you smiling all day. no regrets of all this. no regrets dear. i really honestly, sincerely hope that you have a good day today. because i know that in the past, your birthdays were shitty. and im really sad that i can't be around you at all to celebrate with you...its all you honey. and the people around you better make your birthday one heck of a day. Your 17 now. 17, grown and its like a new beginning.

You're going to do good in your life, i just know it.
& i can't stress enough how sad i am that i can't be in any aspect of this life any longer.

I got back, a year ago. This day...2009. It was hell for you. I remember. You left us at school and i understand. You just wanted to be with him. Everything was going wrong. Nothing was happy. It was your birthday though. It was really sad. No one was accepting. Do you not remember? I was there for you. Remember that. I was there...for you, my shoulder was there for you to cry on. I comforted and i cared...

This day was going down hill, and all we wanted was to find a way to cheer you up. I got bitched at my boyfriend. I remember thinking what a bitch he was for getting mad at me for trying to make you happy. Boys just don't understand sometimes. (sorry to chip for that) I really hope that gesture we made lightened you up a little more.

Let me just say, thankyou for putting me through all this. Opened my eyes to what was wrong. Made me think more. And i really value all my current friendships even more. I may not be good at showing it, but i value all my friends very much. I'm sorry i lacked that for you. Missed it i guess.

I love all of you...and i don't ever want to go through this again.

Christina, Lisa, Justin, Henry. I love you guys.

Thats it. Happy Birthday Purplemonster.

can i please just contact her now?....

sea star

Good evening ladies and gentlemen.

This whole entire week was a good week for me. I thank the sun for that. Made me more awake and perky. Everything went well.

The weekend was super relaxing and i enjoyed every moment of it, even if some things didn't go as planned...not like they ever really do anyways. -____-

Friday afterschool, walked home with Lisa. That was a pain. My feet felt like they were bouta fall off, pure torture. But taking walks home isn't so bad. Specially since it was such a nice day and all. I just needa be wearing more comfortable shoes, if im walking home.

Anyways. Went to Chillis with my sister and Lena & then went to the Drive-in theaters. Watched When in Rome and Bountyhunter. Good movies, good price also. Hehe. I really want to go to the drive in theater with a guy one day...yakno? Like a date. That seems fun. One day, if it ever happens.

Got home around 2 and then passed ouutt.

Saturday, i was suppose to go to Sunset beach, but that plan totally failed due to ride complications. Really gay, i was pretty upset, but what can i do, yakno? I missed out, i know. But then i'm not too sad about it. I spent Saturday with my sister at her shop. That cute couple came in. I feel hella bad for the groom cause his fiance is a bitch. He's hella cute too. So its like damn. He also seems like such a genuine guy. Poor thing. But i mean, if he seriously loves her, good for him. His parents thought i was 13. They wouldn't believe me when i said i was 16 and kept insisting that i was actually 13. I guess so. I'm not sure if i should be flattered or insulted. That would be something i want to hear when i am 30 though. Maybe not now. But sure, i'll take it.

Lena went to go see her dad, so my sister and i went to olive garden for dinner. That was some legit sister bonding time, without her kid and all. So it was pretty nice.

And then today was our "lazy day"...basically just sat around all day and did nothing. Seriously. I woke up, and went to the couch and sat there all day watching tv. and my sister was in her room all day watching tv. Dayum. So unproductive. I finally got up to just go to safeway to buy some food, came back and continued sitting and watching tv. Went home around 11.

This weekend was nice, i wish we can do that more often. Haha.

Drove all weekend! I'm becoming better. Hehheh.

kay, goodnight

Greeeeeen

Hello!

Got my prom pictures yesterday. Didn't exactly turn out the way i hoped though.

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Singles with Justin.

Group Picture w/ the group.

What i don't like about my singles is my bangs and my posture...
On the bright side, good thing i got my makeup done & my eyebrows are looking nice.
Unfortunately, Charles thinks i looked like a monkey.

Happy St. Patrick's Day !
i didn't wear green today cause i forgot. I usually don't forget.
Got pinched once though. So its all good.

Had a good day today.
For once, i think i'm ready to go run my mile tomorrow. Hehe.
Lets just hope Alondra is also.

I'm excited for this Friday. My niece told me that her and her mother are going out to dinner together & then they're bouta go to a movies. Guess whose about to crash their plans and tag along! Yeee.

Excited to Saturday also. As long as everything goes well...i will get to go to the beach.

Today i heard some good news. Well good for me. Made a bit happy, but i shouldn't be that's all...
Saw some niceee set of...mmmmm....today. I didn't want to stare. :x

As long as it continues being sunny and warm, i will continue being jolly and happy.
This weather is the best...

The downside of it though, it attracts mosquitos into my home.
My leg is now itchy.

-_-

High-There.

Waasssuhhh my niggaas`??!

Yesterday i walked to Chipotle with Lisa from MVROP, took us bout an hour and it was totally worth it! I was still hungry after eating, i don't even know why. Sat there till 5pm, because we really didn't want to walk home. Ended up walking home anyways. Got home around 6 something and i was tired as a mfcker. My feet hurt like a bitch and damn, i could seriously use a pedicure right now...but thats money outta my pocket, which i have none of. :C

Went to go see my possibly soon to be new home. Its whatever. Just going to live there for a year right? As long as a have a roof over my head, i think i'm good to go. Its a bit small for my liking...but its cool! Carpeted house too. That'll be something. Now i'll get to vacuum all i want. Nice.

Came home and passed out at 10pm. Just completely KOed. I was that tired. Dayum. But even though i slept hella early, i still couldn't get myself out of bed at 6am. Rofls. I was going to try and go to bed early tonight too, but i have stuff i need to do. (Read? idunno)

Really wish i came home a little earlier today so i could have gotten somethings done - that is if i didn't fall asleep. Had a nice day today. Went out to PCtap again for the first time in hella days. Lisa and I have hella been MIA. Well we still are, just we went out today. Which was cool. But it was boring. Reminded me why i have kind of been at home on weekdays a lot more lately. Tap is hella boring. I really wanted to get my ass home early but i didn't want to nag my friend to take me home when he still wanted to be out. And since i didn't exactly need to get home asap, i just stayed out. Grr...it was pretty boring. Luckily today was a nice day.

Omg...but yesterday was even better! Woww. I loved yesterdays weather. Fell in love with it. Been days since we had weather that fantastic. I'm looking forward to Thursday, because i heard its going to be even warmer. Yipee!

Best part of today?
My babygirl ditched third period because her third period was full of sophomores, and they were all taking their CAHSEE test, so she would have been the only person in class. Went off with our friend - skipped fourth period also because he didn't take her back in time. That wasn't that much of a good thing. Fourth period suckedd. Anyways, she came back to pick me up after class and brought Sonics for me! MmmMMmmm. It was delicious. I dont know what it was that she got for me. A whole meal though. Double something. There were two patties. Yum yum! She saved me from my hunger and i appreciate her for that. Hehe. & then later after school i had Wingstop. That was pretty damn amazing as well. With the fries too! Oh man, i love their fries. Was delicious. All this food, made my day. What would have topped it off is if i had some pho or spaghetti. Yeah, would have been great. Or maybe some Ice cream. Like the Oreo milkshake thing from jack in the box?

I spent my prom savings on Wingstop. Yeah, i didn't really have much in my "savings" but i was really hungry, and i just had to get some chicken. Can't pass out the opportunity if its there! Right? Course not. So now i have 6 dollars left in my "savings"...i don't know if i can keep my word to not eating out. But i know i really need to! Ahh.

Oh yeah, yesterday when i was driving i did something...like drove to close to something? I'm not even sure...but my car now has an ugly ugly booboo scratch mark! Sigh...my poor car...my mom should just go get me a janky car. It hurts to see my car get hurt. POOR THING.

Went to Safeway today. I'm trying to find as many ways to have food for myself as possible. But then none of that junk food. Like Chips and what not...if i'm going to be buying food, i want to get myself good food. But whats good out there...that i don't need to stir up in a pot? I'm not sure. But i bought the fallowing: Jar of Nutella, Wheat Bread, Bananas, Cake mix to make banana nut muffins, Plain Bagels (they didn't have cinnamon raisin available), Special Ks Fruit and Yogurt cereal, and then Chicken strips.

One day i want to make spaghetti so i can eat it for breakfast, lunch and dinner. One day will be spaghetti day. Teeheee....

Went onto Chocolate Chip's blog. He has the remix of Best I ever Had on his blog. Its a hella nice remix! I don't even know which remix it is...since that boy isn't even online...i can't ask. Hopefully he reads this and is nice enough to tell me what it is.

Toooodles

whaas haaannin`?

Oh my goodness gracious.

Daylights savings caused me to loose one hour of sleep. I was super grumpy waking up this morning because i hella did not want to go to church. Kept telling my mom that i didn't want to go. She told me later that "the demon possessed me and told me to stay in bed and not go to chuch" Damn. Rofls.

My major craving atm: Chipotle.
I've been craving for chipotle since Thursday, and i still haven't gotten any. I looove chiptole, i don't know whats so amazing about it, but its amazing. I can have it once a week and not be tired of it. (Not everyday, too much of one thing is sickening...like hotdogs) Didn't get my daily dose of Chipotle this/last week. So sad, so sad. Lately, Lisa and i have had Chipotle atleast once every week. Good thing its said to be the healthiest fast food place, right? Thank goodness for the nice weather that we will be having tomorrow! - 69 degree Fahrenheit, Partly Cloudy. Loving the sound of that. Which means, Lisa and i will be able to happily walk over to Chipotle and chow down. YEE. Excited for that. (:

I don't know whats wrong with me, but i've been hella cold lately. Not my personality but cold, even on a hot day. Ya get what i mean? Yeah...like all day today i had goosebumps and i had to go back to my room and turn my heater on. I'm not sure if im sick or not. I shouldn't be atleast, if anything. Just weird, cause it was a nice day today and i doubt it was as cold as i made it seem.

Didn't go to work today, and i'm not sure why. My mom just told me i didn't have to. Ended up staying at home watching Lena & cleaned my house. Like the old times all over again, right? It was nice. Pretty relaxing. It was lightweight productive. All i did was clean...i wish i read though.

Reading Cat's Cradle in english now. Its actually pretty interesting. So many chapters, but all the chapters are hella short. I've just been hella lazy and haven't really read much yet...so i'm behind. I really need to start catching up though, before i'm HELLA behind. And that'll be all bad to my grade.

Speaking of grades...my grades are sinking low. Shooooooooooot.

Kay! Bye.
Should go entertain me by asking me something : http://www.formspring.me/kathumms

back back back

I was just kind of reminiscing about the past and for some reason it was all the sad moments.
For some reason all my sad moments over rule my happy ones.

one ex. - The Girl.
Now that things have fallen apart, i feel like all the good times were all lies. Or its just unbelievable that things used to be like that. Things used to be that fantastic. Now it has just all crumbled and its like hell between us. So i can't think of the good times because then i'll be sad. There's is no happiness in it. Just sadness with the fact that i can not believe its gone. Its gone & i will never have it back the way it used to be. Ever.

Wait, i'm not really sure. I think because i focus most of my life on being sad with the sad moments, rather then embellishing myself in the good times. That could just be it. So then it seems like i have more sad moments than happy ones. Even my blog says so. I have more depressing posts than happy ones. I mean i just vent more, yakno?

Okay well me looking back into the past isnt really exactly the point of this post. Yes it is, but i don't want to start venting on how stupid boys are. *Which after a talk with this boy in ROP, i have to ask myself: Was it all my fault? - Maybe it was, my fault that i dragged myself into it, yup. Because players know what they're doing. Not their fault. They're just jerks. And its my fault for falling for it. Yawp.

I just have to say a couple things to my girl...
I realized that you're not an expressive girl with your feelings. You're very closed minded at times, and you're a strong person. You would never want to let someone know you are hurting, just hold your head high...thats what you do. Some people don't understand the kind of person you are and take you for the wrong way. I have to admit that sometimes i even forget what kind of person you are. Cause you can be showed as a careless bitch. But you arent. You hella care. I have no idea why you just don't show that you do care for certain things sometimes...but that's you, yakno? I accept that. You're a great person with a big heart. You're very kind and loving. You don't deserve whats done and thought of you. I understand you.

& to another girl...just because!
Hi. I kind of miss you and perky ways. Your jokes, our laughs. I just met you, and got to know you and its a shame that i have lost you. I really don't know where things have gone between us, or how things between us exactly even stirred up. I'm afraid to even think that our friendship could have been fake...but youre a wonderful person yourself. You're very unique in your own way. You have your own style, and own thoughts of mind. You're this sweetheart with jokes, with confidence and strength. I never thought you can ever do bad, but if anyone were to mess with you, you'd be able to beat them like no other. To hear that, its just like damn. Idk...kind of miss having you around.

& to this boy.
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i dont know if im making any sense in any of this. Lol but thats okay.

Say it Quickly!

Went to my sister's last night, and i actually didn't go to bed till around 2am.
I was really tied when i was typing out that post last night...so i don't know what happen and why i stayed up so late. I watched Project Runway, Khloe & Kourtney something Miami, Ugly Betty & CSI: Vegas last night. Good shows! (:

I want to go to my sisters again today...but i dont know when she is getting home.
Might shower tonight too, because i might not have the time to shower in the morning.

I showered last night, instead of this morning & when i woke up my hair was all gross and flat.
Thats also a reason why i rather shower at night.

How much would a wood chuck wood, if a wood chuck could chuck wood?

I thought the phrase was "how fast could a wood chuck wood, if a wood chuck could chuck wood" but then i looked it up and i was wrong. This is actually a fairly easy tongue twister, only i haven't exactly mastered saying it super fast yet. Its fun to say tho. Haha.

Daylights saving today!
An hour...ahead? Right? I'm not sure. I just know i'm about to loose an hour of sleep.
Bummer. Does that mean i should go to bed right now?

Okay, Goodnight.

hello

didnt do much today.
it rained, it poured...i was cold.

shit went down today.
it was gayshit.
it was stupid.
no comment, that's all...

biotech was boring...i was suppeer hungry during class.
thought i was gonna pass out.

came home, had pho.
it was delicious. (:

Lisa & Henbear was over.
I don't know what we did.
Kinda just kicked it in my room.

They went home at 7pm.
I fell asleep when they left.

10:18pm pm - just woke up.
tired as shit.

10:18pm - goodnight.

k-pop

KEEPING IT SHORT BECAUSE ITS 11:23PM AND IM DONE WITH EVERYTHING I NEED TO BE DONE WITH. Meaning i get to go to bed early. Well "early". Trying to atleast.

Very productive today. Atleast i was more productive than usual.
Walked home from ROP and this time Lisa and I went the correct route. We usually go out of our way and walk the opposite way of home...and then end up backtracking. So it was faster this time. Even so, we still took about two hours to get home because we made a stop at Burger King to eat.

Yeah, yeah, i know. I ate out. But i couldn't help it! Honestly it was about a 10-15 minute walk home from Burger Kind, and i thing we could have made it home with out eating, i really wasn't even that hungry. I don't know why we bought food, we just...really wanted to. Sat at BK for days before we started walking again.

Saw Sean Ng today when we passed Irvington! It was nice seeing him, haven't seen him in hella daays. Guy sure has changed since...summer school. Dayum. But i think i like him like this. HEhe.

I think after walking home or around so often lately, Lisa and i are getting better at this. We aren't as tired walking as we were before when we first started out. Thats a good thing. Like we accomplished something, but i'm not even sure how.

Didn't nap today! I was seriously about to pass out when i got home but it took soo much will power to get myself up and not sleep. I cleaned my room, and now its clean. I'm happy. So much can be done within the hours that i usually sleep. Right now i'm pretty much exhausted and i just can't wait to get into bed.

Had Pho for dinner with my parents.
Trying to have dinner with them now, because usually i miss dinner or eat alone while they eat together out in the living room. Because one day, i'm going to wish i spent dinner time with them rather than myself. Something to think about. I don't want to miss an oppurtunity like that. Dinner time is like the only time in the day you can really sit down with your family. Whether you all talk or not, yakno? Its special. I like it.

Cashew took a shower today. She looked adorable all wet. :3This girl kept fidgeting. It was so hard trying to take a picture of her! & yet these are still a blur.

I wish that she could stay that small forever!

Listening to Korean music right now....rofls, i really don't know why. I'm stuck on this guys blog and his playlist is playing but i just can't seem to close the window. It sounds nice. Oh gosh, what's going on with me! Just kidding, hey its not soo bad afterall. I'm not even sure if its korean...i think some is korean and some is chinese? Or maybe its all korean, i'm not really paying attention to the language. The beat is so nice and fun. Haha. Getting in touch with a little bit of my asian side. Oooh. Fuck yeah.

The sound of a piano sounds amaaazing. Mmmm. Just lovely, i really regret quitting. Regret being lazy and not continuing my lessons. If i knew how to play now, i think i would spend my days playing sweet sweet melodies. Ohh, if only.

When i get kids, i really want them to pursue and so what i couldnt or didn't.
Like do good in school, play the piano and do a sport.

Maybe its not too late...yeah, i think i'm going to go find a way to get lessons over summer!
Haha. Maybe.

Let me just make a note:
Today's weather was gorgeous. Not a cloud in the sky. It was still kind of chilly, but it was really nice. Birds chirping early in the morning. I'm sad i didnt wake up on time to dress according to the weather and my mood. & now its raining tomorrow. I missed a perfect opportunity to dress for the sun.

...stupid weather.

p.s. BTW. This is my 69th post of the year! Check in the parentheses in the side bar on your right near "2010" Hehe. Yeah, i know.

Dreamsweet

Something is wrong with my sleeping pattern, and im not quiet sure how it even got like this.
Maybe it is because i come home everyday from school and just pass out, wake up at 7 and then go to bed at 1am and then wake up at 7am the next day. & then it starts all over again.

Really annoying though, because its difficult for me NOT to nap when i get home from school. I tried to today when i got home. I even told Lena to make sure i don't fall asleep. She tried, but i passed out. My eyes were hurting, they were heavy, i just needed to rest.


Horrible that i lay in bed at night trying to fall asleep, but i just wont fall asleep. Eventually i do. Lately, i haven't been getting a good nights sleep. A lot of fidgeting and movement. A lot of uncomfortability. Even my bed heater wont do the trick. Because its too hot, then too cold if its not hot. I rather sleep in the too hot than in the too cold. Or i think i need an amazing goose feathered blanket. Those things feel amazing, as well as they're a bit heavy (compared to my cheap walmart blanket) & i find that i sleep better with a little bit of weight on me, if you know what i mean?

With the fact that i can't really sleep at night, this causes me to not be able to wake up in the morning. And for me, as a person who loves morning showers, it just does not work out too well. I can't wake up for the fallowing reasons - the first obvious, because its way to early in the morning, and i just want to sleep more. Who doesn't right? & then cause i just couldnt really sleep well the previous night. and then because my room is too cold, and under my sheets is where i want to be. Nice and warm. Lately i've been getting up later and later. At the beginning of the year i would wake up at 6am, then i started waking up at 630am, then 645...then 650.

Not like i take hours to get ready in the morning, its just that i like to take my time.
My (preferable) routine goes like this:
- wake up, shower for 15 minutes, come into my room, sit in front of the heater and warm up for a bit, out on pjs, dry my hair, do my hair if i want to, get dressed, moisturize, makeup, leave.

So...with that said, i need to wake up earlier again. Its not "who are you trying to impress?" its just i do it like that to make myself feel better. Haha. Yaknoo? I don't like rushing or all that jazz. Its not like i look any different if i take my time or not. But thats how i like it, its how i want things done...just ain't working out!

+ i get to school late almost every morning. Lucky for me, i have mr. evans and he is a little bit more lineant about things - he gives us till after the morning announcements till he marks us tardy. Even if, i still am late, cause i come in close to when it just ends. Sometimes i make it though.

IM BECOMING A BETTER DRIVER! yeee (;

I just drove to Target & Safeway.
Got myself some OJ and apple juice. Now i'm satisfied, been hella craving for some ever since i ran out.

But you know what i really want right now? Some coffee. White chocolate cappuccino from Cheverons...that was heaven in my mouuth. Not too dark, so it was good but a bit sweet. I liked it though. Had it for the first time yesterday and now i want more. Perfect for the cold mornings huh? Yah! If only i could go get some before i head off to school...just a sip would satisfy my taste buds. And its cheap too!

Also wanting some Pho, Panera bread & Chipotle.
When would i ever not want Chipotle though.
But because of me not trying to eat out...i dont know when the next time i'll be able to get some. :c

Heard of a new place today. Chick-Fil-A?
Its like a place that serves organic chicken. None of that gross unhealthy stuff, or so i've heard. But that sounds delicious. HEALTHY CHICKEN? Damn...i would love some.
Closest one near me is - 1350 Travis Blvd Ste 1516bFairfield, CA 94533
I don't know where that is...maybe when i can drive. (:

Ahah. I just went through the Chick-Fil-A site, and its basically praising cows, so they want you to eat chicken. ROFLS. Goodshit though. I love my cows, i love my chickens, either one would be good to me. Check it out if you'd like though : http://www.chick-fil-a.com/#home

THREE MORE MONTHS TILL I GET MY LIC. hehe.

Goodnight. Sleep tight.
wish the same for me. (:

Up up up

im getting hella distracted with things.
things as in whs jnr prom. Lol.
But, i'm hella excited for it. I think i'm more excited for this than i was for my own prom.
Hehe.

But i am getting hella distracted because its 11pm and i havent started on my hw.
I need to put my laundry in the dryer and take my medications.

Went home early today because i wasn't feeling well enough to go continue my day at ROP. But i didnt want to walk home so i ended up sitting around till 3 anyways, instead of going home. Lamesauce! Its alright though, i suppose...

I wanted to post this video up, but i couldnt because "Embedding disabled by request"
Put watch it! Its adorable. : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PvgVsVmusPg

Just watched two videos.
one of the fattest girl in the world - but now shes not the fattest anymore because she was put on a strict diet so she looks normal now...but because of being so big in the first place it did something to her legs, so she has trouble walking.
then another of the skinniest girl in the world. SO SKINNY ITS GROSS.
poor things. just made me love my body...

Thick volumptious bodies are hot on a lady. Just Saying. :x
But hey, being thin is nice too.

I need to become more active and productive. I never really do anything on a daily bases.
Except sleep & eat.

Speaking of eating...

i'm bouta spend hella bank on WHS prom. More money more money to blow. Aiyah.
Well if anything probably not hella money. Probably about 200, but still. I'm dead broke and i don't have 200 on me. Where am i going to get thaat? I don't feel like asking my mom for more money, i felt bad enough asking her for money for my prom. And this isnt even mind. Lol. So its like eh. So i decided that i'm gonna stop eating out from now on. Atleast try to. I know its hard because i'm a fatass and i always get hungry. So lets see how this works out. Just got to have that self control right? Haha. But this is both beneficial since eating out isnt always a healthy thing + its costly. So i'm saving money & not eating poorly. Yay!

I can do it. Cause if i do, i will have 65 dollars by the 27th. LOL.
Not much, but its something. 65 dollars can get me a mani-pedi + dinner. Or it can pay for my pictures. Goodshit.

I do my thing

i lost my tweezers, ahh where could they be...
tell me why i clean my room so much, but it's still always messy. & then i end up loosing stuff.
Shoot.

Celery, Carrots, Cereal & Apples.
Thats all i've been eating since yesterday. Isn't that suppose to be healthy?
Well DUH. But for some reason i feel hella bloated. Oh, maybe i had too much. Hmm.
I'm sick of my Apple though. Bleh.

Chill day today. Didn't even go to school, so i was in bed all day.
Hehe. Shoot though, i gotta go to school tomorrow. Gayshit. I don't wanna.

Washington's Prom is coming up, and i needa go find myself another dress...ahah...damn.
Anyone have a size 0 dress i can barrow? Deng i really don't wanna put effort in finding another dress, nor do i want to spend the money on another dress. Hmm...i'm exicted though.

March 27th is the day.

Kay bye!

for everyone who ever judged me (:

This I Promise You

Whaaat a day.
I basically did everything i said i was gonna do, so i don't really neeed to explain myself.

Hair & makeup took up a total of 2 hours.
It was hella worth it. Well i did my own hair, and my sister helped me clip it and stuff. So i actually only curled it. Lol. I loved my curls! My hair stayed curler ALL DAY! Shoot. That thing i put in my hair is amazing. I guess tighter curls last longer also.

Prom was fun. Nice, clean, fun. Clean because i didn't want to get kicked out. LOL.
Brandy was there, and was hella watching over everyone. She pulled the Erics out with their dates and told them if she catches them one more time, they will have to leave...how ridiculous is that? I mean we all spent hella bank to be here, and she was saying she'll kick us out. Dammn. What funny is that...everyone was dancing hella clean. Everyone always dances hella clean. Its like a different kind of "dirty" dancing at Mission. Like...mission freaking. LOL. I dont know. But pretty whack, thats all i can saay.

EVERYONNEEE LOOKED GORGEOUS. no lie, so stunning, i loved looking at everyone.
They guys were all very handsome as well. (: So many pretty people. Hehe.

After Party? Nope didn't go. Didn't exactly waant to. Heard it was hella craccin` though! Shoot, i regret it now. ahah. I missed out hella much, didnt i? Yaaah.

Instead of the after party i went to brehbrehs for beer pong. Didn't play though! Ii was suppose to, but when it was bouta be my turn, i didnt wanna play the people that i was suppose to play cause they were way too good...and im a noob. Brehbrehs was fun tho, i enjoyed myself. I love my niggass. Didn't get fcked up like i wanted to, but its okay. Got home around 4, went to bed at 430. I like staying out late...mother just does not approve. Oh that sucks.

Hm...last night was fun though. I really wanna go out and party though, for some reason i dont feel like i partied enough. haa. Well i have Washington's prom to makeup for that. Now i just needa get my mom's approval of letting me go. My only concern is spending more money.

Total spendings for Jr. Prom: 456!
Not that bad actually, so congratulations to me. Hehe. & Yet, that is still a lot of money for me to spend in one month for one occasion. Not usually that much of a spender.

Got our makeup done at MAC. I love it.
My hair - courtesy to my sister

Chipmunks! :3
Cause he has big cheeks...

Henbear. Look he @ his smile! It's gorgeous - compare to wb pic.
Hi Henry, if you

It was a goodnight overall. Even if some things were missing to complete it. Like yadiya..you know. Goodshit thoo. I loved itt. I hope my pictures turned out nicely though.

ROFLCOPTER

Q:What is the cookie monster's favorite war?


A: VIETNOMNOMNOMNOM

That is probably my favorite joke of all time.
Thank you Justin, you made my day.

Davin Tong

BIG DAY IS TOMORROW!
I have everything ready now. Lets just hope everything goes well.
Like my makeup. o:
& Hopefully my corsage comes out nicely, as well as i can get a hold of them.
Fingers crossed!

I put three things onto my Steve Madden pumps.

- Dr. Scholl's For Her insoles.
I think i accidently bought the wrong kind, cause these are for open shoes. Wow...the word "open shoes" is written hella big, and i didn't even pay attention to that. Its okay though, i guess. Still works!
- Kiwi Smiling Feet.
Theyre gel heel liners. This is exactly what i needed. "prevents heels heels from slipping in and out..." Sweet. Feels great too. Its a nice cushiony thing behind my foot. I think these would be great for flats. Because usually the back of your ankle starts to blister, but these feel nice. I love it.
- Non slips.
For the bottom of my heels so i wont slip while i walk. Im not sure if i should stick these on or not though, cause it seems fine to me. But then i have a feeling that if i don't put them on, i'll loose them & then that would be a waste of 3 dollars. :x

Here's the plan for tomorrow -
I think i'm going to try and wake up around 9 to shower and do my hair. Not going to do much to it, just curl it...and clip it. Yeah, simple. Like i said, im just incapable of doing my own hair. :c
Then around 10 or 11 i'm gonna head off to Valley Fair with Lisa to have some Brunch. Gotta return something from Sephora and then i dont i know, walk around for a bit? Head over to MAC at 2 to get our makeup done. Hopefully, the latest i would be back at 4.

When i get back to Fremont, gonna go to Mission to take singles with Justin and then go to Emilys house. at 6, we're gonna go to San Ramon to have dinner. I forgot the name of the restaurant. Then PROM at 8.

Then party party party. Yeee.

I love Peter Chao
But apparently, peter chao isnt real! I hella didn't know that, just discovered that today.

Meet Davin Tong:



He's cuter with his accent and glasses on. (:

Looking forward for tomorrow!
But please mother nature, DONT rain on my parade

Complications

Sunny weather today, but it was still icy cold. & then its going to be raining again tomorrow.
-___________________-


My mom fixed my dress so it could fit me better. The dress went from a size 6 to a size 0. Or more like double 0. Its super small, and i think im about to suffocate in it. But its okay...i'll wear it anyways. Its not like my lungs are squished or anything.

I dont know what it is with me, but even if i know that someone doesn't want to be associated with me, i still try and talk to them anyways. Just because i feel like i need to in order to feel like things are okay. But...really, are things okay? It doesn't really seem like it.

You know how sometimes when you talk to someone, you can just tell that they don't really want to converse with you? Yeah, i hate that. Makes me feel hella down. Its like i just got rejected, but not completely. Usually when i get the vibe that someone doesn't want to talk to me i just stop talking to them, because then it'll just be awkward for me. Here i am all jolly, cause i want to talk to the person, but then they just send the opposite vibe back.

For this situation here though, its different. Even though i had that feeling, i just couldn't stop myself. I wanted to though, it was a bit aggravating. Because honestly, i'm trying to do something here. Honestly, i want things to go back to normal, and honestly, i miss you like fuck. But it doesnt seem like anything will go back to the way things were.

Cause i miss you, thats all. But i feel like im being attacked by this negative feeling.
Makes me want to scream. And then i wonder, why did i insist on trying to talk to you again in the first place. Shoulda just let it be. I just really dont want it to be like this.

Everything seems so forced. But who knows what she's thinking in her mind, when im thinking this, right?

I actually kind of miss them all. And its really sad to think about it...and say, it was only about a month ago when we were bestfriends...and now its nothing more than...i don't even know what to call this relationship anymore ._.

Shit happens
& all i do is wish for those better days.

UGh! i don't know when i'll stop thinking about this. Ha.

and on a brighter note:

Happy Birthday 2 Christina Nguyeen!! ♥
to my darling christina chi nguyen, i love you to death.
Christina is finally 16 now. Basically my age. And for those of you who dont know, she's my bestfriend and sister in christ.
Ha...sounded so religious.

I owe her a gift, but because of prom i am flat broke and cant afford to get her anything nice.
So thats the first thing im going to spend on when i get some money - Christinas birthday gift.

hairography

Hairography is like porn, but with hair. Get it? Got that from Glee. Ha.

I know i said my other post would be my last post about prom, but this is just driving me nuts.
What should i do with my hair?! I want something cute but wild. I love wild. Haha. Or more like sexy. Yeaah. Sounds good. But i'm so bad with doing my hair.

Trying to go for a nice updo. Hm don't know. After i figure out what i'm gonna do with my hair, i will be all set for prom. (:

-Thats it. Bye!

Rocketship

I need to give my parents more respect. Well i mean, i already do, just i need to show them more appreciation. Sometimes when i look back, i would be such a bitch to my parents sometimes...for nothing. That's just sad. They hella don't deserve any of that from me. They have gone through enough. Cause one day, i'm going to regret being a bitch to them, and not showing them my love. & i'll have to live with that forever. No can do.

I can't stress enough how bipolar this weather is.
Rained today. Raining tomorrow.
But hey, rain as much as possible. As hard as you want. Let all that rain down!
And please let it be gorgeously sunny on Saturday. I beg of you.

Finished my first box of Cookie Crisps today!
I dont usually like chocolate chip cookies, but in the form of cereal with milk, its not all that bad.
& then i made a rocket w/ the cut out on the back of the box ! :D

Its so cute, huh! :3
My girls a staar, i build a rocketship. Take my rocketship where ever you aree.

Biotechnology...
Yeah, this class is above and beyond boring. I mean, it's alright if my teacher actually let us talk, but she's hella anal about getting off topic. She's nice though...in some ways. I like her. Today was just ridiculously boring. Sat there for two hours taking notes out of a book...hella just wanted to put my head down and sleep. I don't even remember a thing a wrote. Mostly about Proteins, E.Coli, and amino acids. Wish i didn't have to take it. Wish i could still be in Medical Assisting...cause i seriously enjoyed the class. Oh well. That's why i'm going to college right? Let's just hope i make something out of myself. I find that stuff pretty interesting.

Ha. Thinking back, sitting in Medical Assisting for two hours saying "damn, this class is hella boring. Such a waste of life!" makes me feel like i hella took that for granted. Cause you haven't experienced boring until you get into a class like biotech. Like shit, its boring like no other.

But i shouldn't be complaining though, cause i put this upon myself. Do i regret it? Yeah, i guess. Should have listened to Lisa when she told me that my actions were just because of my emotional well being. Its alright though. Shit happens. Sure does.

Speaking of school, registration forms came yesterday. I have no idea what four classes/electives i should take...I need to go talk to my counselor about my credits and things for college before the week ends. Thinking about taking Psychology though, that class seems interesting, but also kind of hard. Heard there's hella reading involved. I dont know, i'll see. Wanted to take that class this year but couldnt because of ROP. Lots to think about. Ahah. Don't really need to take any serious classes though because i'm going to ohlone anyways. Its all good.

Update on the puppies:
We sold the boy, and we are keeping the girl. My sister bought her from my brother for my niece. So it's basically like her dog. Kind of? She decided to name is Cashew because "Peanuts name is Peanut, and peanut is a nut. Cashew is a nut too, and since Cashew is Peanuts baby, we should name her Cashew." - That's what her reason was. Also something like..Cashew has the same personality traits as Peanut. Personally, i think its an ugly name. More like an ugly cute name. But we'll grow to like it. No one liked the name Peanut at first, and now its totally fits him. No more Truffles, no one liked it. I thought it was cute!

Thats Cashew.
Tiny little fluff ball.

Sadies pictures came also...I like the background, its so colorful and red hehe.

Lisa, Danielle, Jane, Aileen, Kathy

My hair, face and pose is bothering me. I look awkward. But its okay! Everyone else looks hella cute. I love the three in the middle. Ahah. Lisa and I always fail with trying to match with the theme...We got it at first, but some how we inched away from "the 70s" and just thought blacklight - the white "drapes". Sadly, our shirts didn't even glow. Because apparently it wasnt pure white, it was more off white & off white doesnt glow in a blacklight. How disappointing is that.

My goal next year is to try and fit the theme as much as possible...Lets see how that turns out to be like.

So fresh, so clean, so sexy

all this excitement

Im so occupied with prepping for Prom.
& lately, i haven't been motivated at all to make a post.
I justs felt like i should though right now...

Got my nails done today, and theyre pretty gorgeous. Vietnamese lady did a good job!

I have 2 dresses, which i dont have pictures of currently, and im not sure which one i want to wear. They're both white, all white. No hint of color anywhere. Yeah, its like im getting married. One is from Jessica McClintock, and the other one is WhiteOne which looks very nice. Its a little bit above my knee, but its still kind of long. Because i think i thats long. But hey, its waaay cute. Maybe i'll post up a picture later. & Sorry for my horrible fashion sense, but i'm def wearing my red heels. Either that or pink. Nah, i'll stick with red.

I think i'll just go with what i waaant to wear. Hopefully my mom can tailor it nicely (its a bit big). And hopefully i don't regret choosing which dress to wear. I'm so indecisive.

Today, found out that MAC has a private one on one make up session for $50, but i dont get free makeup. I guess thats okay. Well i have no other choice now, because Lisa booked it for me. Ha. There goes $50 just to look "good" for prom night. Its killing me! Lucky girls who can spend hella money for prom. :c I wish i had a job. Im running out of money faaaast.

My appointment for MAC is at 3. Lisa's is at 2...my time slot for pictures is at 3:50 and i'm going down to Valley Fair to get my makeup done. Shit. I'm not sure how all this is going to work out. But crossing my fingers and hoping that it will! I will be so devastated if something goes wrong...

I fail at doing my hair. I tried to do it, and tried to make it nice...but its impossible. The most i can do it curl it. Thats it, curl and clip. But...if i'm going to wear the dress that i plan to wear, having my hair down wont be too nice because now i'll have too much stuff focusing on one area. Or something like that...so i don't know what to do about my hair.

& i can't believe its bouta rain that day!!! Ugh, just our luck, right? Rainy prom day. How saad. Lets jsut hope...the white dress doesnt get ruined, the suede shoes dont get ruined and my face wont melt off. Yeah. Exactly.

Five More Days Till. & lets hope this will be the last "prom talk" blog i post, till actual prom day where i talk about prom itself. Haha.

Btw. Pink Heels - Still for sale! (: