Twilight: Breaking Dawn - Pt. 1

Babe came over today and told me to get dressed and get ready. He didn't tell me where we were going, in my head i just figured we were going to go eat like usual. He made it seem like it was a giant secret where he was planning on taking me. Kind of trying to keep it a secret or have me wonder. Which worked, because i was hella wondering why he wasn't just telling me where we were going.

We went to Starbucks because he said he wanted some, and i got a tall Caramel Brulee Late. It was a good drink! I think it was definitely better than the Peppermint White Mocha. I asked him again where we were going, or what we were doing because he still hasn't told me. I was pretty sure Starbucks was not the mystery place he was planning on taking me. So he told me i had two choices of what we could do for the day: go to Valleyfair to go shopping (some more) or go watch Twilight. I think he thought about Valleyfair because yesterday for Black Friday we went shopping at New Park mall, OF ALL MALLS. For some crazy reason we didn't even think about what a poor mall choice it was to go there until we left at 8pm. -_________- I hella wanted to go to Valleyfair in the first place, but it slipped my mind somehow. And then Twilight was probably the second option because i've been hella wanting to watch it!

So i contemplated for a while because i kind of wanted to go to Valleyfair to look for shoes; however, i didn't want to go shopping again because i needed to save my money. I also didn't want to waste my time driving down to Valleyfair and risking us leave empty handed with an unhappy me that didn't get to buy boots. So, we went and watched Twilight. :)

But first...

Since i was hungry, we went to eat at Sushi Boat. The sushi was pretty good, but i still prefer Madfish or Satomi. It was a little more pricey than i would have hoped. Lunch was on me. :)

Then we went and watch Twilight. Starbucks, Sushi Boat, and the theatre was all in the same plaza so we didn't drive all over the place. I guess i wont go into detail about how the movie went. All i'll say is that it was awkward for most of it, but the ending was so intense. I can't wait for part two! :p

I can tell by how the day went that he thought it over about what he wanted to do with me today. It was nice because generally we're always either not doing anything or trying to figure out what to do with "what do you want to do"s being asked back and forth. It's so sweet that he thought of what i wanted to today! I love him for that. :)

And he was such a trooper sitting through two hours of Twilight with me. Hehe.

Overall, i had a really nice time today. I can't wait for next week. :p

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Thankful For My Family

I'm grateful for the family i have, because they have done wonders to help me realize what a great life i have. My dad reminds us repeatedly how we should be blessed to have what we have, and should never compare ourselves to those who have more than us. His philosophy on happiness is to be happy, you just have to be happy for what you have and not sad for what you don't have. I've noticed with my family that we are all so comfortable with just what we have. We're fine with the life that we live and the money that we make and we don't care too much about being glamorous or fancy. We settle for what we have and we're okay with that.

Such as my brother and his girlfriend for example, they worked hard for what they have and bought a house together. They don't try too hard to buy such nice things, and only shop for things they need or can even afford. I suppose that you can say that pretty much everyone does that, but the lifestyle that they're living...man, you just need to see them to understand what i'm trying to explain. Well i look up to my brother, i always have. To see how carefree his life is, and how carefree he is in general just makes me feel happy. Seeing that he's so happy with how his life is going, living to modestly and such makes me just see that you really don't need much. Him and his girlfriend make their own lives manageable to be happy in.

My mom and my sister also. As woman, we always want to have nice things. Generally always, right? Well as much as they wish they can have nice things such as designer this and that, or just have the money to live lavishly, they don't. Although they want that and don't have it, they're perfectly okay with it! I mean, it's always a wish to be able to live lavishly but in such circumstances you need to compromise. I don't know. My mom and my sister are great role models to me. Once you have children, you sacrifice a lot to make them happy; and in turn their happiness can be your own happiness.

And lastly, my dad. Gosh my dad, i don't know. I've written posts about him before how i'm not as connected with him as much as i want to be. But from what i noticed from him, he's such a carefree and down to earth type of man. He does good to do good, not to be praised. I love that about him. He never fails to be helpful. If you need something, he'll be there. My whole life, he's always been there for me. He's done so much for me and i never really stopped to thank him or show that i appreciate him. He's taught me a lot, and i really respect him.

I don't know if what i said made much sense, but basically i'm thankful for my family. I'm thankful because they're all wonderful people and i'm blessed to have them. I'm glad that my siblings are all making an effort to bring our family together by throwing little get together or family dinners just for the hell of it rather than just for occasions. I'm glad that we're able to share laughs together now, because before (especially for me) there would always be tension with my brother. I'm thankful that they have taught me to be happy with what i have, be happy for my life and have shaped me into the person i am today.

I want to take the time to say to whoever is reading (if anyone is even reading...) that you all should take the time whenever you can in your everyday life to tell your parents you love and appreciate them. Let your siblings know that you haven't forgotten about them. Because it's really important that you do. I try to let my mom know as much as i can how much i love and appreciate her for everything, because i don't want to someday regret that i didn't.

Well, happy Thanksgiving everyone! Hope you all have a great one.

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Thankful for My Love

I am truly blessed to have him as a part of my life. I am also very thankful for all that he has done for me, and i will never forget to show him how much i appreciate him for everything.

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Hoops

"Sometimes we expect much more from others because we are willing to do that much more for them."

I'm willing to do so much for you. So much...i'd seriously jump through hoops for you. Drop my plans if i know you're available. I'd buy you the world if i could, i want to make you happy; however, i don't want to spoil you too much right. I want to show you off, let everyone know what i great guy you are. I want to take you places, explore new foods, and experience new things with you. I want to create fantastic memories with you. Sometimes i just wish that you would notice how much in love i am with you, and give me back the same amount of love. Sometimes i wish you would jump through hoops for me too.

Maybe i expect too much from you, that's right i do. But it's only because i'm so willing to do so much more for you. Is it too much to ask the things i ask? Perhaps it is...i'm sorry i expect too much. I'm not perfect.

Buffet

I've been getting a little bit better with my homework managing, i mean so far i have two more assignments for math to do until it's actually due on Saturday. Except i kind of pushed it till last minute when my teacher decided to want to make all the homework due Thursday. Thank goodness she didn't or i'd be stuck in a situation. So for this chapter i had 7 homework assignments to do. We started the chapter last Thursday and i didn't really want to do any of the homework, i tried to a little but it just seemed too overwhelming. About 30-50 problems each assignment. I guess the amount of problems i had stressed me out a little, but when i sat down to really do it Wednesday evening, it got through two assignments relatively fast.

So decided (since Wednesday night) that if i just do two assignment each night from that night on for the chapter, then i'll be on track. Anyways, today i completely my 2 assignment homework goal and i was starving! I was about to go out and buy some butter so i can make myself some mashed potatoes but my sister decided to text me and ask me if i wanted to go out to a buffet. I swear, i think this was one of the most exciting things i've heard in a while.

After a long homework session and being at home by myself bored all day, being invited to go to a buffet with my sister was exciting to me. How sad is that...

Anyways, it was really nice. I went with my mom, my sister, and Lena. Just the ladies. :)

We ate and all talked about things. I don't even remember what we talked about, but it was really nice. We sat there till the place closed basically. Haha. My mom loves going to buffets. And tonight i got to satisfy most of my cravings with cheap food, but it was good enough for me!

Went to my sister's afterwards because Lena wanted me to sculpt things for her. While doing that, i had a nice long talk with my sister about life and relationships. I love my sister, sometimes i wish that she was closer to my age so we can go to the club together or something. :p I wouldn't mind that. Can't wait till i'm 21 though so i can finally drink with my siblings and my parents.

Thanksgiving next week, i'm excited. :3

Okay, Bye.

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Reminder

Hi there.

Just here to remind everyone that I love my boyfriend, he's the sweetest thing.

Today he did everything for me. I love how he would generally just do anything for me with no questions asked. Willing to just let me lay in bed while i ask him to make me tea and food, and do everything else. Such a sweetheart.

Okay, bye. :)

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Can't Take My Eyes Off of You

Didn't really do too much today. Babe's super sick, and seeing him lay in my bed kind of just wanted me to go lay down with him. So instead of homework i just laid in bed for most of the day and tried to tend to him. Too bad he was just completely exhausted and was just knocked out the whole time. So it was a peaceful day with him today. He looked so miserable whenever he would wake up. Poor thing, i hope he feels better.

So i want to learn how to cook. I just don't know what dish i want to attempt to make first. Babe and i go out and eat way too much, whether it's a restaurant or fast food. I guess once here and there would be okay, but i think we got so used to eating out that we're just always going out to eat. Then again...there's never really anything at my house to eat. It's been like that for years huh. Lol. We're always at my house too, so when we're hungry...our first thought is to just go out. I guess it's too time consuming to go out and buy stuff too. But i want to learn how to cook just because i should. Haha, girls need to know how to make food right? All i know how to make is spaghetti, and according to my Italian stallion, it's not even legit spaghetti. :(

Anyways, i told Babe that and he said he wants to learn too! So we're going to try and cook something together. Lool. Lets hope that works out well. Wish us luck :p

Lauryn Hill - Can't Take My Eyes Off of You

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Baby Chowder

I was going through old emails that i've sent over the past couple of years. I found this picture in an email i sent to my mom. It's Chowder as a baby! I didn't notice that she had that collar and name tag since she was a puppy. She was always such a cutie. Fluffy ball of cuteness. We still have her cage too. It's still in the family room...not in use anymore. She sleeps in it.

Oh, i don't know why i'm torturing myself like this. I really wish she wasn't gone. I fucking hate that she is. I don't like the thought of it...but i keep thinking about it. I guess over time i'll get over her death.

It's raining tonight. I really hope the city or someone took her out of the street. I don't want her to get rained on, and i really don't want cars carelessly driving over her body even more.

I miss you so much Chowder...

Do Good Anyway

"The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have. It may never be enough, but give your best anyway"
- Mother Teresa

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Makeup

Hm...the day started off pretty well today. Considering what happened last night. I woke up with swollen eyes so i just didn't go to school. Part of me really wanted to go find her and see her, even though i knew i wouldn't be able to handle seeing her like that. Well good thing Babe didn't go to school either (he woke up late), so he accompanied me at Starbucks for a while. I ended up not going to my second class either, and just went to class to turn in my essay and then i left to spend the rest of the afternoon with Babe till he had to go to work.

After he left i decided to just complete my homework, of course i was obligated to. For some reason, tonight i kept getting super distracted. I guess i just really didn't want to do any math at all. It took my 4 hours to finish all the assignments that were due today. -_____-

I kept taking little breaks in between problems, thats why. Haha. Surfing Tumblr, talking to people on Facebook, talking to my mom, playing with Bunny, finding things to eat, and doing my make up! I haven't done my make up like this in such a long time. I just wanted to play around with my make up tonight because i was bored...you can't really tell what i did with my eyeshadow, but i was pretty proud of the outcome. :) I'm not very good with applying makeup.

I did my eyebrows, eyeshadow, eyeliner, falsies, and blush. I don't wear foundation so i'm not completely caked faced there. :p

I left my make up on for the rest of the evening, until just now. I was about to wipe all my make up off but i decided to just wipe off half of it momentarily to take this second picture. LOL. I wanted to have a side by side comparison of me with half a face of make up and half natural. (That way, it's not as gruesome as a full face of no makeup...lol jk...) Now i'm like the Asian lady that you see pictures of with half a face of caked on makeup, and half of nothing.

You can see here, on the left, everything is just bolder and more "enhanced" as you can say. Darker eyes, darker eyebrows, fuller lashes, and rosier cheeks. Interesting, huh?

Anyways, my mom was completely down today. Apparently she knew about what happened to Chowder way before i did, but she didn't want to tell me. No wonder her eyes were red and watery when i saw her last night. She was telling me that she loved Chowder so much, that Chowder would always follow her around and stay by her side. Now she doesn't really have anyone to keep her company because Bunny is always around me. I hope she'll feel better. She didn't go to work today either, and wasn't in the mood to really do much around the house; so, she ended up going thrift shopping. I love my mommma.

Well all in all, today was an alright day. That's all i gotta say for now. Bye!

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Chowder

My dog has been missing for over a week now. I was about to go to the pound again yesterday to see if i can try to see if she's there again. I think this time, i should have tried to look for her harder. I should have walked around the neighborhood to try and find her.

My brother's girlfriend found her today. Someone called in and said they saw her on Mission Blvd/ Tamarack. She called me to let me know the news. I knew it wasn't good the second she told she had some news about Chowder. I was pretty much speechless, and tears just came faster than anything. I couldn't believe what i was hearing. I just wish i could have found her earlier.

I am regretful that i didn't show her as much love as i wanted. It's because of her little peeing condition. Always peeing and running away with a trail pee behind her. I got tired of cleaning it every time i petted her, that eventually i just stopped petting her all together. Every now and then i would...but most of the time i'd just get annoyed that she just kept peeing. I knew all she wanted was affection, i really wish i gave it to her. I really did adore her, i really did. She's the most beautiful dog. Her lovely coat, her cute pink nose, and her hazel eyes.

Really wish she found her way home. Christine only found a couple blocks down from my house...she was so close to home. Now she's just in the streets, and people are going to carelessly drive over her body. I want to try to go get her, so she doesn't have to go through that. Christine tried to, but she said the road is too busy. Is there any way i can get her out of the street?

Rest In Peace my little Angel. I love you, i hope everything is better for you now. ♥