I miss your voice
& youre presence.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Goodbye, Farewell.
Before going to bed, i think i'll blog a little.
Just to stall, you know?
Well i just finished my Lab Report for bio. I better get most of the credit for this cause this is the first lab report i've ever done. And its pretty legit too.
Hey i smell pretty. (:
So i just found out, like 2 hours ago, that my mom has been going around tryna get me a new bed! And today, she bought me one, and im gonna get it tomorrow. Yay. New bed for me. I hope its a queen sized one. Otherwise...i wouldnt know what to do with the extra room in my room. I also hope its comfy and amazing to sleep on.
Now i'll have a nice bed to lay in for the next 12 days.
Mrs. Moore (my english teacher) got a blackberry curve! AND ITS PINK!
lucky bitch ): I want a pink blackberry. But mines now ugly. Rememeber when i first got it and it was SUPER beautiful? Yea, well not its SUPER ugly and nasty cause i dropped it way too much.
I dont expect to get a new phone anytime soon. I like my blackberry though. Just if only it was in better condition. :l
So...my headphones for my Ipod, unfortunatley died this weekend. I'm pretty sad. And tomorrow i have to run yet another mile, without music to listen too, cause i have no headphones. But on the brightside, this is going to be the last mile i will ever have to run in my highschool life. Maybe someday ill run a mile just for the fun of it. But who knows. Lets hope i remember to bring water, cause last week i totally forgot and was incredibly dehydrated when i finished running.
Cutie is leaving tomorrow at 9 or 10 in the morning to fly to Korea for twelve long long days.
Remember when we were talkign about the what ifs? Like what if you cant see me for two weeks? And we said how we didnt really even want to think about it. Or more like, you said that but yea. Well now we are actually going to experience it ):
QQ
And now youre not even home to talk to me. & i'll have to wait 12 days to talk to you again. Unless somehow we get lucky and you call me from Korea at a good time.
I'll miss you so much.
Have a nice trip though. :L
Just to stall, you know?
Well i just finished my Lab Report for bio. I better get most of the credit for this cause this is the first lab report i've ever done. And its pretty legit too.
Hey i smell pretty. (:
So i just found out, like 2 hours ago, that my mom has been going around tryna get me a new bed! And today, she bought me one, and im gonna get it tomorrow. Yay. New bed for me. I hope its a queen sized one. Otherwise...i wouldnt know what to do with the extra room in my room. I also hope its comfy and amazing to sleep on.
Now i'll have a nice bed to lay in for the next 12 days.
Mrs. Moore (my english teacher) got a blackberry curve! AND ITS PINK!
lucky bitch ): I want a pink blackberry. But mines now ugly. Rememeber when i first got it and it was SUPER beautiful? Yea, well not its SUPER ugly and nasty cause i dropped it way too much.
I dont expect to get a new phone anytime soon. I like my blackberry though. Just if only it was in better condition. :l
So...my headphones for my Ipod, unfortunatley died this weekend. I'm pretty sad. And tomorrow i have to run yet another mile, without music to listen too, cause i have no headphones. But on the brightside, this is going to be the last mile i will ever have to run in my highschool life. Maybe someday ill run a mile just for the fun of it. But who knows. Lets hope i remember to bring water, cause last week i totally forgot and was incredibly dehydrated when i finished running.
Cutie is leaving tomorrow at 9 or 10 in the morning to fly to Korea for twelve long long days.
Remember when we were talkign about the what ifs? Like what if you cant see me for two weeks? And we said how we didnt really even want to think about it. Or more like, you said that but yea. Well now we are actually going to experience it ):
And now youre not even home to talk to me. & i'll have to wait 12 days to talk to you again. Unless somehow we get lucky and you call me from Korea at a good time.
I'll miss you so much.
Have a nice trip though. :L
[sad face]
Saturday, May 23, 2009
dunno.
I want to buy you something nice. Something you would like? But the problem is, i'm not exactly sure what to get. & also...i have no money and can't afford anything nice. How about a cookie.
I want to make it up to you, but i don't really know what you would enjoy. I thought just being with me should be enough, but actually its not. I want to make it up to you in a way that will make you smile hella much. I dont want to be so cheesy though. I'll make it up to you for sure.
Congratulations David Hai Tran! < - He graduated today at San Jose State <3
The bbq was good. I'm still hungry though.
Didn't really do much today. Woke up early and just went to the graduation & bbq afterwards. Just came home and chilled afterwards. I have a slight headache but thats okay.
I want to be out right now. rfjensadpcfrled. Dumb curfew. + my momma is strict ):
Tear.
Party party party.
I hope i get to see you tomorrow. That'd be nice.
Feeling a bit lonely. Missing you a lot. Hungry. bored.
I want to make it up to you, but i don't really know what you would enjoy. I thought just being with me should be enough, but actually its not. I want to make it up to you in a way that will make you smile hella much. I dont want to be so cheesy though. I'll make it up to you for sure.
Congratulations David Hai Tran! < - He graduated today at San Jose State <3
The bbq was good. I'm still hungry though.
Didn't really do much today. Woke up early and just went to the graduation & bbq afterwards. Just came home and chilled afterwards. I have a slight headache but thats okay.
I want to be out right now. rfjensadpcfrled. Dumb curfew. + my momma is strict ):
Tear.
Party party party.
I hope i get to see you tomorrow. That'd be nice.
Feeling a bit lonely. Missing you a lot. Hungry. bored.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Bad Day
Not really in the "blogging" mood. But, i rather blog than do homework of course.
I have a Math & Spanish quiz tomorrow, biology homework, history homework thats due tuesday and english project to work on.
& then i have to clean my room...and look for my mascara.
I ran the mile today. For once. My legs felt heavy cause i havent ran for long while.
I brought goldfishes to Math to share with Chavy, Kassie and Allison. Didn't really do much in Math. Just sat around, and ate. Pretty chill period.
Spanish was boring. I slept. That was nice.
English idk how to explain what english was like. Lol. But all we did was sit in our little groups and discussed the project. Sigh sucks being the only girl in the group. The book sucked & the group sucks. frwsmdcwlslsrg. This book needs to die.
Lunch was annoying. Some dumb bitch crashed into Chris' car and fucking drove away. Someone doesnt know how to drive. Said it was our fault that she drove into it. Really? I dont even drive and i know better. & then i closed the door on my arm. That hurt like no other. Got milk tea cause that bitch wouldnt stop driving and took us all the way to that area. I wanted mcdonalds. ]:
Biology sucked ass today. I dont even know.
History was boring. Nuffsed.
Idk. nothing really exciting happened today. Yesterday wasn't any better.
I hope i can get outta tutoring tomorrow. I miss my cutie <3
& this blog sucked.
Homework timee.
Havent clean yet.
I'm still saving up for a stupid laptop >o
This is what im gonna save up for next, after i get a laptop [:
http://www2.store.puma.com/ProductDirectAction.do?colorStylePK=lWEpFY730719zbyDOhAPHb-1&sn=red&source=evisu
OR
http://shop.rockandrepublic.com/store/productdetails.aspx?productid=1835&rv=1
most the rocks though o:
i saw these red ones like uh 3 months ago? but now theyre sold out. So maybe like after i get my laptop and save up bout 200, they might have another one [:
I have a Math & Spanish quiz tomorrow, biology homework, history homework thats due tuesday and english project to work on.
& then i have to clean my room...and look for my mascara.
I ran the mile today. For once. My legs felt heavy cause i havent ran for long while.
I brought goldfishes to Math to share with Chavy, Kassie and Allison. Didn't really do much in Math. Just sat around, and ate. Pretty chill period.
Spanish was boring. I slept. That was nice.
English idk how to explain what english was like. Lol. But all we did was sit in our little groups and discussed the project. Sigh sucks being the only girl in the group. The book sucked & the group sucks. frwsmdcwlslsrg. This book needs to die.
Lunch was annoying. Some dumb bitch crashed into Chris' car and fucking drove away. Someone doesnt know how to drive. Said it was our fault that she drove into it. Really? I dont even drive and i know better. & then i closed the door on my arm. That hurt like no other. Got milk tea cause that bitch wouldnt stop driving and took us all the way to that area. I wanted mcdonalds. ]:
Biology sucked ass today. I dont even know.
History was boring. Nuffsed.
Idk. nothing really exciting happened today. Yesterday wasn't any better.
I hope i can get outta tutoring tomorrow. I miss my cutie <3
& this blog sucked.
Homework timee.
Havent clean yet.
I'm still saving up for a stupid laptop >o
This is what im gonna save up for next, after i get a laptop [:
http://www2.store.puma.com/ProductDirectAction.do?colorStylePK=lWEpFY730719zbyDOhAPHb-1&sn=red&source=evisu
OR
http://shop.rockandrepublic.com/store/productdetails.aspx?productid=1835&rv=1
most the rocks though o:
i saw these red ones like uh 3 months ago? but now theyre sold out. So maybe like after i get my laptop and save up bout 200, they might have another one [:
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
New York Times...
I went to target today with my mom and spent about one-hundred and fifteen dollars.
& i got a new book! :D its called Love the One You're With by Emily Giffin.
I finally finished Ask Again Later (:
Tryna take up space. I wonder how long it'll take me to finish this...
& i got a new book! :D its called Love the One You're With by Emily Giffin.
I finally finished Ask Again Later (:
Tryna take up space. I wonder how long it'll take me to finish this...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
I O U
Whatever you want. Have you thought of it yet?
Didn't run the mile today...i should make up these miles somehow.
Anyone wanna loan me some running shoes...i dont think running in vans is a very good thing.
I'm currently very cold right now and i want to cuddle in my bed.
A bit sleepy...
Goodbye [:
Didn't run the mile today...i should make up these miles somehow.
Anyone wanna loan me some running shoes...i dont think running in vans is a very good thing.
I'm currently very cold right now and i want to cuddle in my bed.
A bit sleepy...
Goodbye [:
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Lets go live in a cardboard box.
Today, i ate a lot. ]:
I'm going to be seriously fat when i grow up. I will be like a cone. D:
Because all this fat will catch up to me soon.
Today i had Chipotle, Jack in the Box, & a lovely burrito.
Im starting to grow fond of Mondays. I realized that i'm so full of joy. I like coming back from our little weekend break and seeing people from school. The friendly ones that say hi to me atleast. Hehe. I love when people say hi to me. Makes me smile.
OH YEA! So like on Sunday night, Rossy went into labour at 11:43pm. She had 3 girls. 2 black and one white. Hella cute. She's such a good mommy. I was about to cry when she was going through labour. Such a wonderful thing. I didnt get to see the babies pop out of her vagina though.
Went to Bakers today, to visit Samantha at work. I hella want those heels that i tried on. Ahh i love heels. <3 I wonder if she could get them for me with her employee discount [: But i wouldnt mind spending on it. Just ill cry over it later. Somewhat worth it.
I owe Justine money & i owe Justine's boyfriend 3 dollars.
You know what i want to do? I want to watch Mulan & Pocahontas. ...And other disney movies with a bowl of popcorn. I want to unleash the child in me. Remember Bambi? I wanna go find that movie, and buy it. So i can show my kids. Life can not be complete without watching Bambi! Lena hasn't watched it yet. Poor girls. She's missing out on life.
Im ready for tomorrow. & i'm gonna run the mile. Or "run" it. I dont want to flake out on it again. Lol. I feel bad when i dont run it. It might burn off all this food i ate today. I'm ready for a happy day. Yay! :D
I'm going to be seriously fat when i grow up. I will be like a cone. D:
Because all this fat will catch up to me soon.
Today i had Chipotle, Jack in the Box, & a lovely burrito.
Im starting to grow fond of Mondays. I realized that i'm so full of joy. I like coming back from our little weekend break and seeing people from school. The friendly ones that say hi to me atleast. Hehe. I love when people say hi to me. Makes me smile.
OH YEA! So like on Sunday night, Rossy went into labour at 11:43pm. She had 3 girls. 2 black and one white. Hella cute. She's such a good mommy. I was about to cry when she was going through labour. Such a wonderful thing. I didnt get to see the babies pop out of her vagina though.
Went to Bakers today, to visit Samantha at work. I hella want those heels that i tried on. Ahh i love heels. <3 I wonder if she could get them for me with her employee discount [: But i wouldnt mind spending on it. Just ill cry over it later. Somewhat worth it.
I owe Justine money & i owe Justine's boyfriend 3 dollars.
You know what i want to do? I want to watch Mulan & Pocahontas. ...And other disney movies with a bowl of popcorn. I want to unleash the child in me. Remember Bambi? I wanna go find that movie, and buy it. So i can show my kids. Life can not be complete without watching Bambi! Lena hasn't watched it yet. Poor girls. She's missing out on life.
Im ready for tomorrow. & i'm gonna run the mile. Or "run" it. I dont want to flake out on it again. Lol. I feel bad when i dont run it. It might burn off all this food i ate today. I'm ready for a happy day. Yay! :D
Friday, May 8, 2009
my two cents...
...are not welcome here. They are not listened to, they are ignored.
My two cents, are not cared for.
So maybe this is why i don't voice my opinion and never really speak up. I just go with the flow. Do whatever people want and never what i want. I dont really stick up for myself. I don't have the balls to do so i guess.Then when i decide to state my opinion about something it gets shot down. Maybe this is the reason why i hate making decisions for things. Because me making the decision is such a waste of time. WHO CARES WHAT KATHY THINKS. No point of asking me, you wouldn't have used what i thought of anyway. Speaking up is a waste of my breath, and a waste of your time for listening to what i had to say. So why not just leave it with me doing whatever you want and not asking what i want. I'll just sit around and say "Oh yea...thats fine. Whatever you want" Then; you want me to fetch your slippers? Grapes? Are you hungry? Want good. Like a good servant that listens & doesn't speak up. Yea? Cause that's how it is anyway.
I'm sick of being made fun of. I'm sick of being called ditsy and blond all the time. I'm not retarded and i do know what is going on sometimes. At times i just dont. We all have our moments, i just happen to have it more. So what? Goodness people, you all have so much joy just putting me down dont you? Apparently. Oh look at Kathy, Ahaha she's such a blondy. Laugh it up. Just laugh and ill stick some fucking turd down your throats. And then we will see who's laughing. I will not make any excuse for how im slow with some things, because what i say doesnt matter anyway. I have one. True story too, having to do with the loss of many brain cells.
"What? Stfu. No one cares Kathy"
...Yea okay, i wasn't gonna tell it anyway.
Yea at first i guess it was just whatever. Still kinda hurt by it. Like wow...everyone thinks im fucking retarded. Great, whatever though. ha ha... Kinda just welled up all of a sudden and now its getting to me a little. I dont appreciate it. Why not just every once in a while instead of with everything i do? "Wowww, Ditsssyyyy." Every mistake i make, everything i find hard to understand, when i say something wrong...it gets accounted for. Put tape over my mouth and ill sit down. Just tell me what to do and ill do it. How's that? Can't call me dumb now, can you. Good Kathy. Good girl, want a treat?
Fuck you all.
I'm feeling a bit stressed.
"over what? you don't do shit..."
-_- Life. Because, you know it can be stressfull sometimes, even if i don't do shit. I dont care for school, i dont take responsibility in anything. I'm worried for this event. I want it to be nice. I care for how it turns out. I CARE. No one cares that i care. Lol. Of course. Whatever. Youre all busy and im not, okay ill do the work for you, no problem. Sike. As a matter of fact, i am stressing over school, even though im not really doing anything about it(which i should be)...i'm still worried. & then i have all my other drama.
Let me tell you something...then when im done youre going to not going to care and just say the many things that can end the conversation. You show no interest. Well thats great. Thanks for caring. Now i know not to tell you anything anymore.
How long can we hold a conversation? How many times will we change the conversation within a given time? How many times a day do you ask me what i'm doing, how my day is and how am i feeling? Those are terrible ice breakers. Can you talk to me for a long time without killing the conversation, not asking that so often and then keeping it alive and interesting?
Sex & Drugs
Have you had the sex talk with your folks yet? I haven't yet. Or did i? Does my mom talking to me about birth control count? Hm...well no sex for me.
Did you know in the Catholic church, its not a bad thing to enjoy sex? This preist told me along with many other students that sex is a beautiful thing. Thats how we are all born. Just a process of life. So its okay. Something else, but i don't remember.
Stop with the Drugs, otherwise it can be your girlfriend instead.
Happy Birthday 2U, Josh Choi.
He's 20 now. Hope you had a great day.
& sorry i couldn't be there with you. It's okay, your future girlfriend was their though.
GoodJob.
Feeling a bit sensitive today. I think i'm going to start my period soon. I get hella sensitive sometimes. Then everything just hits me. I get bothered super easily. & then...i rant about it.
Theyre cute. She's single. & me? Well...
*Charity Dinner Tomorrow.
Sweetdreams
My two cents, are not cared for.
So maybe this is why i don't voice my opinion and never really speak up. I just go with the flow. Do whatever people want and never what i want. I dont really stick up for myself. I don't have the balls to do so i guess.Then when i decide to state my opinion about something it gets shot down. Maybe this is the reason why i hate making decisions for things. Because me making the decision is such a waste of time. WHO CARES WHAT KATHY THINKS. No point of asking me, you wouldn't have used what i thought of anyway. Speaking up is a waste of my breath, and a waste of your time for listening to what i had to say. So why not just leave it with me doing whatever you want and not asking what i want. I'll just sit around and say "Oh yea...thats fine. Whatever you want" Then; you want me to fetch your slippers? Grapes? Are you hungry? Want good. Like a good servant that listens & doesn't speak up. Yea? Cause that's how it is anyway.
I'm sick of being made fun of. I'm sick of being called ditsy and blond all the time. I'm not retarded and i do know what is going on sometimes. At times i just dont. We all have our moments, i just happen to have it more. So what? Goodness people, you all have so much joy just putting me down dont you? Apparently. Oh look at Kathy, Ahaha she's such a blondy. Laugh it up. Just laugh and ill stick some fucking turd down your throats. And then we will see who's laughing. I will not make any excuse for how im slow with some things, because what i say doesnt matter anyway. I have one. True story too, having to do with the loss of many brain cells.
"What? Stfu. No one cares Kathy"
...Yea okay, i wasn't gonna tell it anyway.
Yea at first i guess it was just whatever. Still kinda hurt by it. Like wow...everyone thinks im fucking retarded. Great, whatever though. ha ha... Kinda just welled up all of a sudden and now its getting to me a little. I dont appreciate it. Why not just every once in a while instead of with everything i do? "Wowww, Ditsssyyyy." Every mistake i make, everything i find hard to understand, when i say something wrong...it gets accounted for. Put tape over my mouth and ill sit down. Just tell me what to do and ill do it. How's that? Can't call me dumb now, can you. Good Kathy. Good girl, want a treat?
Fuck you all.
I'm feeling a bit stressed.
"over what? you don't do shit..."
-_- Life. Because, you know it can be stressfull sometimes, even if i don't do shit. I dont care for school, i dont take responsibility in anything. I'm worried for this event. I want it to be nice. I care for how it turns out. I CARE. No one cares that i care. Lol. Of course. Whatever. Youre all busy and im not, okay ill do the work for you, no problem. Sike. As a matter of fact, i am stressing over school, even though im not really doing anything about it(which i should be)...i'm still worried. & then i have all my other drama.
Let me tell you something...then when im done youre going to not going to care and just say the many things that can end the conversation. You show no interest. Well thats great. Thanks for caring. Now i know not to tell you anything anymore.
How long can we hold a conversation? How many times will we change the conversation within a given time? How many times a day do you ask me what i'm doing, how my day is and how am i feeling? Those are terrible ice breakers. Can you talk to me for a long time without killing the conversation, not asking that so often and then keeping it alive and interesting?
Sex & Drugs
Have you had the sex talk with your folks yet? I haven't yet. Or did i? Does my mom talking to me about birth control count? Hm...well no sex for me.
Did you know in the Catholic church, its not a bad thing to enjoy sex? This preist told me along with many other students that sex is a beautiful thing. Thats how we are all born. Just a process of life. So its okay. Something else, but i don't remember.
Stop with the Drugs, otherwise it can be your girlfriend instead.
Happy Birthday 2U, Josh Choi.
He's 20 now. Hope you had a great day.
& sorry i couldn't be there with you. It's okay, your future girlfriend was their though.
GoodJob.
Feeling a bit sensitive today. I think i'm going to start my period soon. I get hella sensitive sometimes. Then everything just hits me. I get bothered super easily. & then...i rant about it.
Theyre cute. She's single. & me? Well...
*Charity Dinner Tomorrow.
Sweetdreams
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
Is it really Friday?
I can't get over the fact that you are oh so very cute.
i was with them today and i envy what they have
im bruised inside.
Hi. Today is a Friday. But is it really? Doesn't feel like it at all. Its gloomy outside. For some reason i'm feeling very sad inside. I just got hit by reality, and i don't like it. What the fuck...
When i'm 20 and not ashamed of this, and when the majority of you all are missing what im missing, i will talk about my life story...
I need help.
Maybe tomorrow then, yea?
Oh wtf. So these 3 boys just came knocking on my door and i opened it. & this guy was like
"hi, do you happen to have an extra pair of socks?"
& i was like "uh..no" and he was like "come on, my socks are wet. i have holes in my shoes" and i told him to just go home and he was like but i dont live here! you dont have any socks? and i was like no not for you... & he's like wow you poor person, fuck you.
Little kids these days.
ITs 4:55pm. I will be back later. Maybe
I'm back, and i just realized that its MAAAY [:
Here are the May birthdays that i know of...which is only a feww.
May 8 - my cutiepiee <3
May 15- TRAMIE! :D
thats it...
adios <3
i was with them today and i envy what they have
im bruised inside.
Hi. Today is a Friday. But is it really? Doesn't feel like it at all. Its gloomy outside. For some reason i'm feeling very sad inside. I just got hit by reality, and i don't like it. What the fuck...
When i'm 20 and not ashamed of this, and when the majority of you all are missing what im missing, i will talk about my life story...
I need help.
Maybe tomorrow then, yea?
Oh wtf. So these 3 boys just came knocking on my door and i opened it. & this guy was like
"hi, do you happen to have an extra pair of socks?"
& i was like "uh..no" and he was like "come on, my socks are wet. i have holes in my shoes" and i told him to just go home and he was like but i dont live here! you dont have any socks? and i was like no not for you... & he's like wow you poor person, fuck you.
Little kids these days.
ITs 4:55pm. I will be back later. Maybe
I'm back, and i just realized that its MAAAY [:
Here are the May birthdays that i know of...which is only a feww.
May 8 - my cutiepiee <3
May 15- TRAMIE! :D
thats it...
adios <3
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