Mobile Home

Went to the mobile home park that i'm moving to on Friday. I had to go there to sign papers and what not to finalize everything. Still hasn't exactly hit me yet because i'm not all that miserable...but the thought of moving sucks a whole lot. I don't care about moving into a teeny, tiny house, i just care that i'm moving so far away from people.

The realtor showed me the inside of the mobile home. I really imagined it to be a lot different, i imagined it to be a bit bigger actually...it was a whole lot different than what i expected. The living room is spacious, so is the kitchen. The rooms however were so small. I don't think i've ever had a room so small before...unless i was so small it didn't seem so small. I don't even think i'll be able to fit my bed, dresser, and desk all in there. Gosh, well i don't know.

Honestly, moving into a tiny mobile home wouldn't be so bad if it was located in Fremont/Union City. Just the fact that i'm moving in San Jose into a tiny mobile home, makes it worse.

I've really been moving so much in my lifetime, way before i can even remember also. And this has to be the last move, and i'm sure of it, until i decide to move out. Which probably isn't going to be until im 25/26. Although, i guess it wouldn't hurt to move once more back to Fremont and into a bigger home. Quite frankly, i don't like the idea of being stuck in a small household till i'm 25. It just urges me to want to move out sooner. Really though.

I'm starting to sound rather spoiled...i guess. Haha. If you've spent most of your life in houses and shit, downgrading to a mobile home that's so small is pretty miserable to think of...

But i've tried making the idea of moving there better. I'll have my own bathroom, although i rather have a bigger room over my own bathroom...because even with my own bathroom, now i have another responsibility to clean it myself. I get a bed frame, except now that i found out how small my room is, perhaps having a bed frame will just make my room smaller. We'll have cable, and i might get myself a TV. But once again, since my room is small i don't know how a TV would fit. (Even mounted on the wall, because i'm picky with the way things are hung).

And when i say the room is small, i'm not even exaggerating. It's seriously as small as it sounds.

We get access to the house May 1st. We'll probably be moving mid may or beginning of June.

Ending of Spring Semester

The end of spring semester is coming up. Next week will be my last week of English 101 because the week after is optional and then it's finals week. As for my other classes, i have two more weeks of actual class and then it's finals.

Since summer is pretty much just around the corner, i was thinking of searching for a summer job since i wont really be doing much of anything of the summer. I don't know, i guess i sort of really revolve my life around my boyfriend. I'm moving in about a month to San Jose, which already means that since i'm going to be far away my boyfriend and i wont see each other as often. Currently we are privileged to see each other almost every day since we just live 10 minutes away from one another. Generally he has morning shift, which means that he generally has to go home early to sleep, which just abolishes the chance to come see me if i'm living far. Because by the time he gets off of work after morning shift and comes home, it's four. Then the drive out to San Jose will add another hour or two depending on traffic, which will only leave us about 2 - 3 hours together and he'll have to drive back home. I suppose all that isn't very much worth it. Then even if he has night shift, he wont be able to see me before work since he simply doesn't have that time. And when he gets off of work after night shift, it's 12am and then coming out to my house will just be too late...

Now imagine adding work to my life. When will we ever find the time to see each other. Last year when i worked, i always worked when he didn't. Now, if anything i'm sure it'll be the same. Either i'll be working when he isn't, or working when he is. Or both. We wont be at an easy access of each other...no more just driving over just to see me for a bit and go home. Now it'll have to be drive through two cities and see me.

The thought of it drives me a bit crazy, i don't like the idea of it all that much. I don't like the idea that what i'm used t will have to change.

I'm crazy in love with this boy, it's absolutely ridiculous. Honestly, being far away from him and him being busy with work and me possibly being busy with work, i'm scared. But i mean we have to have hope right?

There's always hope. Never doubt a relationship, because then it definitely wont work out.

Then there is commute to Fremont to SJ, for school and whatever other reason.

I need to look over my Fall Classes and possibly Summer as well. My registration day is coming up soon, and i'm not even sure what classes to take next. Probably Stats for sure. I need to get that out of the way.

Moving sucks fucking ass. Especially when you have to move far away from someone you care for and it just ruins everything.

New Look

Sort of got tired of the old look of my blog. Everything get's boring doesn't it. Also, since Blogspot changed it's look also, i felt like it was time for my page to have a change itself.

It's springtime! The colors match the colors of my laptop, and lately i feel like i've sort of been into lavender/lilac/purple.

And instead of bold titles, i decided to go with a more "decorative" approach. I also just felt like going simple this time with the black font rather than a colorful font...especially considering that i have pops of color everywhere else on here right now. Don't want it to be too overwhelming with springtime colors. Hope this is pleasant to your eyes. :p

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p.s.  I've decided to make the heart red since the font is black, it's not going to be automatically  maroon anymore. Hopefully i'll just remember to do this everytime...

p.p.s. i don't think this was interesting to anyone whatsoever. 

First Beach Day of 2012!

Thursday, my boyfriend and i went to Boiling Crab with Lisa and her guy. Afterwards, we just went back to Fremont and went to Garageworks. I wanted to see if one of the boys can check out my car and see where that sound my car was making was coming from; however, the sound just disappeared out of the blue when they were checking it out. Go figure...it hasn't been making the sound since then though, so i don't know what happened. But i'm glad it's gone. Haha. There wasn't too much to do that night so my boyfriend and i just went back to my house and watched Girl With the Dragon Tattoo. It was around 11pm that we watched the movie, and we were actually pretty tired. We just wanted to do something so we rented the movie but ended up falling asleep halfway through. Originally, i was going to let him stay and sleep, but my mom came in while we were watching the movie and saw him there...i think maybe we were talking loudly or that she heard the movie so she wanted to check up on me. Well that pretty much ruined it. He fell asleep here anyways and  she ended up checking up on me in the morning. Of course, she was upset.

The next morning, i was suppose to go to my orthodontist appointment, but since my boyfriend was sleeping there i didn't go. I have yet rescheduled my appointment. My mom woke me up hella early because she saw him sleeping here and wanted me to make him go home or something. I was hella irritated because i just wanted to sleep. She seriously woke me up at 7am and many times afterwards even though i didn't need to be up. I guess it's my fault...well Friday was 420. I mean my boyfriend and i both don't smoke so it wasn't such a big deal to us. It was to his friends though! Lol. I was thinking of just chilling with my boyfriend and finish watching the movie and get a drink, but his friends asked us to go to SF with them to Hippie Hill. I honestly didn't even know people celebrated 420 like that. The drive to SF was insane. 2 hour drive there stuck in traffic in his friend's van. On top of that i sat in the back and it was seriously so hot. Once we got to SF, there was even more traffic on the streets especially the couple blocks around Hippie Hill due to the massive crowd of "hippies"and pot heads, i guess that's what i'll call them. We got there around 6pm or so, and that's when the event or gathering of smokers at Hippie Hill started to leave. The streets were super crowded. His friends ended up not even going to the actual hill or whatever, and we just shoved our way through crowds to try and find a place to eat. Almost all food joints were filled with people. It was pretty entertaining seeing hella strange people being hella high and shit though. Babe tried crepes for the first time and loved it. That night his friend had a little kickback planned, had two 30 packs and a bottle of Henny but everyone was so beat from the day that no one was even down to drink. Should have though twice about trying to have a party on the night of 420, everyone was probably burnt out as fuck. I was just tired as fuck. My boyfriend wanted to sleep over again, i was a bit hesitant about it because of the previous night with my mom, but how can i say no to him. Haha. We went back to his house so he can get clothes and stuff for the next day because we were planning on going to the beach.

We woke up rather early Saturday morning, but just layed in bed for another hour or so till we actually got up and got ready to go to the beach with Lisa and her guy. The drive there was just unbearable. We didn't think there would be traffic, but i guess we shouldn't have been so surprised since it was the first hot weekend of the year and everyone was probably trying to head to the beach. It took us about 2 hours to get to Seabright beach. The drive was the worse because i had no radio. -___- And then my car started tripping out halfway there and my AC wasn't all that great. Well when we finally got there, we didn't stay very long. Chilled under the sun for a bit and then left. I really wanted to go to the boardwalk, but it didn't seem like Lisa and her guy wanted to. So hopefully next time. I wanted some funnel cake and ice cream. Haha. My boyfriend and i didn't get a chance to eat anything all day except snacking on chips and what not. We went to a chinese restaurant down the street near the beach, it was alriiiight. Kind of pricey but what do you expect eating near the beach. Honestly rather have spent money on the expensive food sold on the boardwalk. Just part of the beach experience! We could have had chinese food back in the area for cheaper, and better. The drive home went by a bit faster. I was so beat by the time we got back home, but the evening was so, so lovely that i didn't even want to be in the house no matter how tired i was. Went out with my boyfriend and his friend had another kick it at his place since the night before was such a fat failure. I had a nice talk with one of the girls, and went home around 1am. This time he didn't come home with me, however he drank so much that he ended up at my house...my mom was pissed the next morning when she found him in my room knocked the fuck out. But damn, what am i suppose to do if my boyfriend is too drunk and can't go home. I dont know. I don't know why she's been checking up on me in the mornings all of a sudden! She seldomly does. :( I like when he sleeps over. Wish she didn't mind too much.

Sunday was just a chill day. He had graveyard shift later that night so we didn't really do too much. Went and ate like usual, and then went around for a bit and chilled at my house the rest of the day till he had to go home and rest. I ended my Sunday cleaning and getting some homework done.

He basically slept at my house all weekend, but i guess i need to steer away from that for a while till my mom stops checking up on me. She confronted me today telling me that he can not sleep here for any reason what so ever and if he can't go home, he'll have to find a way to deal with it. Dammmmmmnnn thoughh. Hurts me a little inside. Don't know if i should be allowing him to stay over if she isn't allowing it, but it's hard to resist. I'll find a way to deal with it, or get around it...

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P.S. Blogger changed, and i sort of like it. 

Coffee

Lately i've been craving coffee almost everyday.

Specifically hot white chocolate mocha with soy milk ! And it has to be soy milk. - From starbucks

My wonderful boyfriend introduced me to it. Well i always knew about the white chocolate mocha, but never did i think about telling them to add soy milk. It was heavenly cream in my mouth. Or something like that, but you can really taste the soy milk in the drink and it compliments it very well.

What compliments this drink even better is if you drink it with a cinnamon swirl coffee cake. It's just perfect.

What compliments this combination even better than anything is if you have the two in morning when the sun is shining nice and warm, sitting outside (perhaps of Starbucks) and enjoy the morning.

And what makes all three of those together spectacular is if you can share the moment with good company.

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Atonement

Finally watched Atonement today. I've been trying to watch that movie for thee longest time now. Couple years in fact. I think i tried watching it twice before in two complete different times but it didn't work out for me too well because the player didn't work. I tried watching this movie online that's why. You can't really rely on online movies to work out for you all the time. Well i finally got to watch it (online) and it was great. The movie was a little hard to follow, and because i was watching it online the bottom of the screen was cut off. So, when the characters were speaking French i couldn't understand what they were saying cause i'm sure the captioning was cut off.

The movie, however, did not turn out like anything i expected it to. Gosh it was great.

It was a sad little love movie with a twist. Nothing like you'd imagine, nothing like you'd expect.

"...tell the absolute truth. No rhymes, no embellishments, no adjectives..."

The moral of the story is to be truthful no matter what, because if you lie about something terrible that you're unsure about it will cause a great deal of grief upon your life.

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Easter Weekend

This weekend was anything but boring. Lately, it seems like i've been enjoying my weekend more than usual!

Went to my boyfriend's friend's kickback on Friday night, it was pretty chill. Almost everyone who drank anything or was smoking something was outside majority of the time. It was hella cold that night, so i pretty much just sat inside and munched on pretzels. I haven't really been into drinking too much lately, or i don't even have the urge to get fucked up at all. I've also been DD every weekend for my boyfriend and

myself, which isn't too much of a problem. Gives me an excuse to tell those that like to shove shots on hen

essy in my face. Lately, i've just been fond of sipping on one beer for the whole night, or take one shot and sip on beer...that has me set. All i want is a nice buzz. Heh.

Well after the kickback, my boyfriend and i stopped by Micko's kickback thingy for a little bit. I just sat and chilled, played with Micko's bigass phone - the Samsung Galaxy Note or something like that. Pretty dope phone ! Just too big for me i think haha. Babe just played one game of beer pong and then we left to go back to my house. Pretty chill night.

Seems like every week now, he sleeps over at my place either Friday or Saturday night. It's pretty crazy sometimes when i wake up next to him and get to snuggle with him before we actually get up. I wonder to myself how this is even possible, and how i get to wake up to him. It's pretty great.

Saturday was my sister's event thing and my boyfriend and Lisa came along to help my sister out. We didn't have to get there till 5pm, so my boyfriend and i just did our thing till thing. We were looking hella good though! All fancy and shit. Went and got some pho and just stopped buy target to pick myself up stockings to wear that night.

The event was pretty hectic. There were over 600 people there, and my boyfriend, Lisa, and i along with 4 other girls were servers. Night went on till 2 in the morning. We seriously were just running back and forth servings alcohol and food to people. I think i made pretty good tip off those people. Seems like everyone just had money to blow cause there would be people giving me a tip every single time i brought them something or someone just letting me keep the change. I didn't really have a chance to really stop and take pictures though.

It's been a while since i put hella effort and dolled up with my bestfriend. Lisa and i used to love doing this all the time when we were single, but now we don't really even go anywhere or do anything that we can get dolled up for.

Babe came over again that night and slept over. We were exhausted from running around all night, so we had a goodass sleep.

As for today, Babe and i just chilled. We woke up and decided to go eat. Usually we don't even start our day till 2 or so since we wake up at 12. Takes us a minute to get ready also hahah. That's pretty much all we did. Went to Backyard Boiler, then to Walmart to pickup some stuff, and then came back home and watched Friends for a little bit. Since he has work at 7 in the morning tomorrow, i had to take him home early.

I have a speech to present tomorrow and i got my presentaional aid ready, but i'm not ready at all to present the speech. IM SO FUCKED. Ugh...such a great weekend i had and now back to stressing out over school.

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Broken Car

My car broke down! So for the meantime till i get it fixed, i'm driving around my brother's box car. I don't know what it is about my family but all our cars (except mine of course, and my mom sorta) has hella shit in it and it's a complete mess!

I guess it might be my starter, whatever that is.

It's about time something happened to my car. I suppose it's an easy fix. If only i can get another car. Ohhh well....

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Fuck the Bullshit

Fuck the bullshit because i'm not going stand around and tolerate any of it. At some point, after putting up with the same shit over and over again, eventually you'll just come to a realization where this shit is not going to fly.

So fuck the bullshit and get your damn shit straight. I love you and all but i am not going to tolerate any shit i don't deserve.

What Hurts the Most

What hurts the most is finding out that someone you look up to thinks you're incapable of doing anything. What hurts is find out that family thinks this of you.

Okay i have it good. In fact i have it real great. I'm hella fortunate the way my life is. I'm sorry you didn't have it the way i did. I'm sorry the generations are different. But excuse me, think about what shit you went through before you tell me i'm incapable of shit. I still got my whole life ahead of me to make something of myself, where as you fucked yours up early and you blame your fuck up for the fuck ups you make now as an adult.

I'm sorry things are good for me. I'm sorry you think what you think of me. I'm also sorry that i no longer look up to you.