Love Story

Thank you for being the sweetest guy ever to me. Let me just say that i'm so glad i gave you a chance. I don't know why people have said that i can do better and what not because you're honestly all i could ever ask for. In my eyes you're perfection, even with your little flaws. I love every little thing about you. Every little aspect of you, you're little imperfections makes up what you are, who you are. -- Does this make any sense?

Each day i spend with you, opens my eyes more. I'm sure i realized this before, but then lately i've been realizing that i truly have something worth cherishing. You're amazing in every way and i'm so glad that i can call you mine.

All the actions you make, the things you say...even if sometimes you can really just get on my nerves, in the back of my mind i'm just thinking about how adorable you are. So adorable. I guess it's because we're more comfortable with each other now, that it allows us to really...express ourselves differently. Because the way that i'm around you, well thats only for certain people to see. Do you understand me?

Thank you for holding out the bags when we finish buying stuff at Target or Walmart. Thank you for getting me orange juice when i ask you to get me orange juice. Thank you for making me clean my room. Thank you for helping me organize my room. Thank you for taking me to work that one day and picking me up afterwards even though work and your house was really far apart. Thank you for paying for dinner when we go out to eat. Thank you for doing stuff for me because i'm lazy. Thank you for waking up early Saturday morning just to come over and sleep with me. Thank you for caring about my health. Thank you for trying to talk to my mom and even being concerned about her not liking you. Thank you for coming over to spend time with me when we first started talking instead of going out to be with your friends. Thank you for trying to fix things when i'm upset with you, and not making things worse. Thank you so much for being so patient with me whenever i'm in one of my moods. Thank you for loving me, caring for me, and wanting me all to yourself.

I love you sweetie, with all my heart. Even though i've written something like this before somewhere either in a letter or in a different blog post, i just wanted to say it again. Because i can never stress it enough how much i appreciate you. You're so special to me, and i don't care what anyone else says because you are the best i've ever had.

Happy four months, even though it's just four months. Yay to the longest relationship i've ever been in & most stable too. This is definitely something to be very happy about in my mind. :)

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College

First day of college was today. To be honest, it didn't really feel like i had school...like i just woke up, went to class but it didn't really feel like "the first day of school" to me. I guess because how everything works in "college" is so much more different from highschool. I didn't go to orientation a few weeks before school started where i would see many familiar faces, everyone knew each other (basically) and just an environment of comfort. I guess that's what highschool is suppose to feel like? Comfortable? I don't know. I didn't get a schedule where i compared with other students where i would see who i should be expecting to see in one of my 6 classes.

First day of school just went by kind of. Everything is just on my own, and i guess that's how college is suppose to be. You're responsible for your own stuff. Signing up for your own classes, at the time you chose yourself. Figuring out by yourself where your classes are, and most likely you wont be in the same class as a friend because they're probably just going in a different route as you. Going to school and not seeing anyone i really know. None of those, "OMG HOW ARE YOU?! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!!" *Hug* type of thing. I just went to class...

I mean, i met up with one of my friends that i knew after my second class today. He helped me out a bunch! Got me a discount on my parking permit. Yee :) I was about to use the term "joog" because my boyfriend always say that. -___- Well thank you Vu Huynh for helping me out, hella appreciate it. :)

I'm trying to see how i manage my time in the morning. There's absolutely no way that i can beat morning traffic. I want to see how much faster (if possible) it would be to just go locally...because traffic this morning was hectic! I figure, maybe i rather go 40mph locally to get to school than go about 25-30mph or so in traffic...because its so scary all those cars ._.

That's it. It'll kick in soon that school has start. Like when i start having assignments. Which reminds me i need to go get books and what not. Boo.

Until Next Time...?

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Our Day

Hi my name is Kathy Nguyen and i just wanted to let the world know that i had a wonderful and maybe one of the greatest days ever in my life with my beautiful boyfriend Steven Binag.

So my day was a huge blur. went home slept for 2 hours then went to kathys house around 9ish. slept until 5pm then went to go get some delish chipotle, after that kathy got mad at me for going to luckys. anyways then back to her place we go. So when we got back i smoked a delightful cigarette. as i was walking to her room from the backyard, her gayass dog chowder started barking at me cause she is scared of strangers. i dont understand this shes seen me a lot. So when i got into kathys dining room aka her room, i laid down on the bed and she laid next to me happily ever after. and then her mother came home, yeah the one that dislikes me very much. and now were laying here on her wonderful macbook, she made me type this. okay ima leave now and go back to laying down on her wonderful dkny bedsheets. alright bye bloggggggers!!!!!!

-Steven Binag

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This is my last weekend of summer, and i didn't even do shit. Sad face. I guess it's really just whatever. I'll regret not doing anything worth while this summer, but in the end i sort of don't really mind...cause my summer was overall pretty relaxing.

My boyfriend went out last night, and pretty much just stayed out all night. I was going to go with him, but for some reason i just didn't feel like it. Even though last weekend i was telling him that i wanted to do something fun for the last weekend of my summer. Well i ended up staying home doing nothing. I attempted to watch Atonement online, but it completely failed on me. On top of that, advertisements kept popping up and bothering the shit out of me. Completely ruined the mood of the movie. About halfway through the movie, it stopped and i tried to play it again and the movie started all over again. I couldn't get back to where i left off. I really want to finish watching that movie though! I might try finding a place i can possibly rent it. I was thinking redbox, but then they don't always have a wide selection. And my family doesn't have netflix, nor do we want to pay for that. Boohoo.

Anyways, my boyfriend stayed out all night and didn't go to bed till 7 this morning. That's what he told me. He wanted to come to my house at 9am, and in my head i was just thinking how he is definitely not even going to wake up to come over at nine in the morning. To my surprise, he actually got himself out of bed and came over at nine in the morning. Why did he come over at 9am? Cause he wanted to sleep with me. Hahaha. He came over, and slept in my bed. I woke up around 11, got ready and everything and then realized that he's completely knocked out...he woke up for about half and hour after i woke up and then knocked out again. He was suuuuper gone. I was hella bored, didn't have anything to do. All i wanted was some human interaction or something. I got tired of waiting for him to wake up so i decided to just go to sleep too. We both ended up waking up at 5pm & left my house to get some Chipotle. He woke up asking me if i'm hungry and wanted to go to Chipotle. Shit, he pretty much read my mind. While he was sleeping i was thinking about how that would be so delicious...his treat. Hehe. :)

I got upset at him for a minute after we left Chipotle because he wanted to go to Luckys to buy a pack. -____- He's suppose to be quitting! But i guess it's super duper hard for him to do so...but still, it bothers me sometimes. Usually i don't really care, like i never really cared that he smoked in the first place. I only care now because he told me he was really actually trying to quit. Hasn't happened yet. Still waiting for that day to come.

We got back to my house...and since we're both pretty much broke, there wasn't anywhere we could go or anything we could really do so we just chilled at my house. Didn't really do much. Eventually my mom came home. My mom lets me bring him into my room now. I don't know how that happened, but it's nice. He's been hella tired all day and now he's napping again right next to me because i wont let him go home until i finish writing this blog. Poor thing has work at 7 in the morning tomorrow. :(

Last day of summer tomorrow, i'm definitely just about to stay home and enjoy my last moments of pure relaxation.

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Sanctuary

Hm...my blog is pretty much my favorite place to come to. I don't know who reads or if anyone even does read, but i feel safe here. As lame as that sounds. I mean since nowadays everyone is over at tumblr.com, no one even remembers about blogspot. It's pretty much ancient to anybody.

Writing out things that are on my mind brings my mind to peace. This blog, is like my sanctuary...

I sound really lame. Speaking of sanctuaries and peace, take a look at this site that i found on tumblr. :3

The Quiet Place

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"X" Years From Now.

10 years from now...

- I hope to be married or at least in a super stable relationship that would be leading somewhere in that direction. If i was to be in a relationship at that age, that wasn't leading in that direction...i don't know what i would be doing with that guy. Wasting my time.

- I definitely hope that i'm done with school, and found a job worth waking up for. The futures hard! I don't know how i'll manage to find a hospital or whatever that would take me in as one of their nurses. I'd have to be pretty kickass, i would think. Right? Labor and Delivery. Just hopefully that'll go well for me. That's my career in choice right now, supposedly i'm suppose to change my major a couple of times before i finally settle. So we'll see what happens? The nursing community is competitive. Need to work my ass off to get noticed out there, and make brilliant connections. My goal currently is that after x amount of years, until i make enough credits to transfer...i want to transfer to a school and then join a "business frat". Heard those are helpful. Don't know where i plan to transfer to yet. I plan to speak to a counselor about this when i start school.

...the school thing should be before the marriage, huh?

Something about these "x years from now" goal things, you shouldn't be so doubtful of yourself. Like don't say that "you hope" for this to happen or whatever. Should be straight on it and completely positive, because that's where you'll be x amount of years from now. Making up a set goal for yourself saying that you hope for this to happen, you just wont feel as motivated as you should. You wont feel as though it could really happen since you didn't make it seem like that way to yourself when you first jotted it down. Jump into starting your life knowing that things will definitely work out the way you want it, work for it as hard as you possibly can to make it happen. Maybe it really will happen. And if you fail? Well, if you failed...at least you tried. (In my opinion...)

Totally being a hypocrite right now because i just wrote my hopes and dreams up there saying that i hope it'll happen. I mean, i definitely do hope and would really like if that's what will be of me in 10 years. It's hard for me to really just say that that's where i will be in ten years. Take my advice if you'd like, even if i don't.

Ten years from now i will be in a stable relationship that has to be heading in the direction of marriage, otherwise i'll be wasting my time.

Ten years from now, i will be done with school and working in a hospital as a labor and delivery nurse. I will be doing great at my job, and i will love it. Because everyday is a different day, and each day will be a day worth waking up to when i go to my job knowing that i'm helping someone and doing my best to put a smile on patients friends, letting them know that i am here to help them.

Ten years from now, i have found the people in my life that mattered to me and that i think a worth keeping around. I would have built great relationships with people and the few real friends i have now, they'll still be around.

Ten years from now, i will have gotten over the weird..."discomfort" of going to the gym by myself, and find my own self motivation to go with or without a gym partner. I will have a fantastic body that i will enjoy looking at without a shirt on. :)

I start school Monday. Shit. College...

Boyfriends Vs. Friends.

I've gone through the whole "chicks before dicks" fight. The one where i lost my best friend because well...she didn't follow the code. Hey, i wasn't trippin. Our friendship came in a pack of three. Her, her, and me. While she was off with her man all the damn time, my other girlfriend and i would just hang out with each other. Hey, we weren't trying to push her out okay? She was just too occupied with her guy. Wherever she went, he would be there. If we were to want to hang out with her, he would be there. Again, not trippin. I liked him. Really did. Long story short, eventually she felt left out of our three way friendship. She felt like we did things all the time without her, and she felt neglected. To be honest, it was all a misunderstanding. We didn't realize how we were making her feel, but at the same time she didn't realize that she'd always be with her boyfriend anyways. What were we suppose to do? Long story short, our pack of three quickly became two girls who were still best friends. The other went off and did her own thing, probably better off now huh?

So i've been there, done that. Forget it hun, i don't really want to go through that again. But if it's happening it's happening.

We're growing up, okay i get that. This is the new chapter of our lives. We just graduated college, and we're pretty much headed in different directions of life at this point.

I'm sorry to say, i'm starting to give up a little here. It's been like this ever since Junior year to be honest. Have you been keeping up with my blog since then? Maybe you'll know what i'm talking about. Ever since i can recall, deep down inside me i've personally felt a little neglected. I keep reminding myself, that's just the way she is. But then...i'd sit back and look, hey how come she's always hitting up other people, tryna kick it with other people, talking to other people, socializing with other people, wondering what's good on a Friday night with other people. Where am i in the equation? Not there. Just. Not. There. The only way i even end up hanging around her or whoever is if i go and figure things out myself with her. Where i gotta go message her and blahblahblah. Hey, we've been through this talk with her too alright? Her response to this was, well i can hit her up too why don't i ever hit her up. I ALWAYS HIT HER UP. Sometimes i'd just like to feel noticed, like to feel wanted around, you know? Especially with my bestfriend. Sometimes i'd try to wait it out and see if she'll ever hit me up, and she doesn't. The couple of times she hit me up that i remember was coincidentally when she didn't have a car. Go figure.

We're growing up. No matter how many times i go through this topic with her, telling her that i never feel like she legitimately cares about my existence/emotions...i don't think she'll ever process that into her mind to maybe show me a little, just a little, that she does in fact care. No matter how many times i tell myself that that is just how she is and i need to accept it, in the long run i will never really be able to just accept it. Because i will always feel like i deserve a better friend. Expect that's just how she is...As much as i can say all this, she is a good person. She is a true friend in the end. I guess in her mind, she really doesn't feel the need to be around or whatever. Sure, sure.

I find it crazy though, whenever her boyfriend is around she never has the time for me. She never cares to think to make time for me. That's boyfriends vs. friends. Who do you chose, who is more important? Who will be there for you when things go bad. Okay, sure. I get it. Not my fault that i feel neglected and i haven't hung out with her in a longass time.

Funny how we used to go from seeing each other every second of the day, every single day to barely seeing each other and not even talking to each other. When i try to make plans with her, she has to wait and see. There's no definite answer, so no guarantee.

Sorry that i miss my bestfriend. My other bestfriend is off to college, and the other one is too far away and always too busy. And all my other close friends, i can't even talk to anymore. I feel like i have no one left really.

My boyfriend wonders why i haven't been hanging out with people. He noticed that i haven't been going out anywhere. Who the hell am i going to hit up. I don't have girlfriends, and my guy friends i can't even talk to or they don't want to talk to me because of complicated shit. Others are off to school.

She takes me for granted, she really does. I help her with so much, and there's no appreciation. What the hell is even a best friend anyways now a days. I miss being close to my other girls. I miss them. No one even...notices.

I sort of want to delete my Facebook. The whole point of that is so people can stay in contact with each other right? Well if anyone wanted to keep in touch with me, they'd find a way to do so. Don't need no internet crap keeping that bond together. That's weak. What is it even for, now that i think of it. Show off your life? I don't know.

I never really got my point across...or did i? Basically, we're losing each other a little bit because i'm giving up on our friendship. Sorry, but i am. I don't want to be around anyone that doesn't really care to give a shit about me. We're both going different ways, and we both have boyfriends to occupy our time or whatever the fuck it is. Our boyfriends have become our replacements. Don't even tell me i'm wrong. The only thing that kept us together during highschool was our 6 classes together. With out that, the glue that kept us together is basically gone. You understand what i mean? I'll always be there for her, and i know she'll always be there for me though. I'm just disappointed a little.

Monterey Bay Aquarium

Babe took me to Monterey Bay Aquarium for my birthday. I've been hella trying to go there, cause i've never been there before and it just looked hella neat. I'm glad he took me, i never had anyone take me anywhere like that before.

My camera quality seriously sucks. That's why i've kind of been wanting a new camera, cause i really want to just take more pictures of my life. I don't need a big fancyass camera or anything though, just one that would have better camera quality. Funny thing cause my camera that i used was bout 400 dollars 2 years ago, and was apparently...a nice camera. Maybe i just don't know how to use it correctly. Who knows. These were the most clear pictures that i actually captured while i was there. Babe looked at some other guy's picture while he was taking a picture and hella bashed on my camera for being hella weak. :( Not my fault! Bummer though that we weren't able to take many pictures of the pretty fishes and of each other...meh.

He hella loves penguins, i think it's hella cute. He got so excited when he saw them through the glass window. He was like a little boy for a minute there. :p

It was a nice experience going there. I've never been to the aquarium before, really wish i could have taken more pictures with better quality. I have a couple more, but they're all either dark or hella ugly. What a shame! He was going to take me there by surprise but Lisa ruined the surprise and told me accidentally when we were out to lunch together. She didn't know that it was suppose to be a surprise.

I hella wanted to go find the Dippin' Dots place around there, but when we got out of the aquarium i honestly didn't really want to walk around anymore. Didn't even know which direction to even start walking to find the place anyways. Disappointing though because i love that stuff! Babe and i hella just wanted to get back to our area to eat some Boiling Crab cause we were hella hungry. The drive there and back was hella long, and not the business.

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The #97 Rule of a Gentleman

The #97 Rule of a Gentleman: Never stop trying to show her how much she means to you, even after you've got her.

Obviously, it may not apply to every guy. Some people, girls and guys both, when they're in a relationship eventually someone stops trying. They just get "too comfortable" and they feel like they just don't have to put in as much effort as they used to. Correct me if i'm wrong. They either stop reminding each other how grateful they are to each other or showing each other how much they mean to one another.

I guess because at some point...after they've been together for a certain amount of time, someone feels like they don't need to verbally tell the other person that they love them, or that they're amazing. Maybe at some point they feel like there isn't really a need to go out so often as a couple. Quality time spent together isn't as special as it once was before. Just too comfortable.

Not only is a it a "rule of a gentleman" but it applies to the ladies too. Just never stop trying with them. Just because you have the person you wanted in the palm of your hands, doesn't mean that the chase is over. You'll always have to continue chasing, otherwise sooner or later one of you will slip away from each others grasps. It wont be the same as it once was before, and that's a shame to see such great love lose it's way. Should always continue chasing, let them know that they're really something special to you where you would give them your all and more, 110%.

What do you know about this...?

I guess i sort of like the idea that someone would put aside everything to be with me for as long as possible. Being with me is hard for many reasons. One of the reasons is that i don't have many privileges for a girl that is practically an adult. I have a curfew, and my mom would constantly nag me to come home and would often make me feel guilty if i go out too much. I don't want to be coming home "late" almost every night because i know she stays up to wait. Late being 12am or even 1am. The thing about this is that i wouldn't get to go out on weekends and just stay out with my guy just to kicckit with him and do whatever he's doing. Then i'm just stuck at home. I barely even go to parties because i don't like going to parties and not at least drinking, and then having to ask someone to take me home. It's just such a hassle you know? So then i just rather not go even though i'd like to be there. I really would.

I like the idea of being a priority rather than and option. You know what i mean? With every different relationship, everything is done differently. There's like a "routine" of some sort of how things between two people work. Such as...these certain days when you two may plan to see each other, it may just be like pretty much every other day you guys see each other. Unless you guys actually plan something different out. Then you hop into a different relationship and things are done differently and you got to get accustomed to that. Do you understand what i'm trying to say...

What i'm really trying to say is, ease up a little be. Let things be, let things just happen. Don't expect for too much because then you'll just end up disappointed. Even though you're with someone, sometimes you still just got to take care of yourself and you still need to just do you. Keeping in mind that your significant other is important to you, don't forget that. However, don't forget your own worth. You're not about to just sit around at home doing nothing cause you're not with them are you? You're not going to be a boring broad, are you? Go have your own life. Just because you're in a relationship doesn't mean you need to slow your life down to be more accustomed to theirs. They got their own life too that they need to maintain, they're not about to slow it down or fix it up to deal with you satisfaction.

Also, don't forget one thing. You guys don't need to spend 24/7 with each other. Give each other breathing space. All the space that's possibly needed. Because when you guys do meet again, it'll be special.

Distance is not a problem, doubt is.
Don't doubt. Doubting while in a relationship is probably your worst enemy.

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Spent the day with my boyfriend. I was hella tired though when he came by because i seriously didn't even sleep last night! I blame the energy drink i drank earlier that night...damn, worst decision i made all summer. I was just laying in bed all night last night trying to fall asleep but it was impossible! I didn't end up falling asleep till 7am.

I woke up around 12 something and he came over. We went and posted it at Starbucks for a while because he wanted some coffee and to grab something small to eat i guess...i just had cereal at my house before i went to meet him up at Starbucks. Afterwards we ended up just going back to my place and i was so exhausted so i tried to rest up for a little bit.

There's really never anything to do...unless we're really trying to spend money. Now that i'm out of a job, i really need to be cautious of how i spend my money. No more income. I want to save up for Christmas season, and when it starts getting cold cause i'm definitely going to want to buy all the wonderful cute jackets and coats i can possibly afford...which is probably just two. I'm going to go buy a North Face jacket before i become broke. So maybe sometime next week i'll just go out and buy one at Valley Fair. Treat myself out to something nice for myself for my birthday. :p I'll consider that. Because i'm definitely going to just spend my money on food...that's what i've been doing lately. -______- Always blowing money away from food. Boyfriend is definitely broke now also, especially after just investing his money into a bike. Bleh...so all we can really do is just sit around and do nothing. The most we would do is go out and eat. There we go, spending money on food.

My mom said we're moving on Tuesday. I'm going to go and try to find another job after i'm done settling in and can make up a list of where i want to go job hunting at. By then i'll be 18 and i'll have more job opportunities. Sucks that it's just so hard to find a job now a days...and i seriously feel like ALDO doesn't even like me. Bunch of bull. Whatever. :l

Anyone want some services done from me? I'm down to clean your house for you...mow your lawn? Wash your car?

Kathy here at your service...just holla at me one time. :p

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Please

Please don't tell me that my boyfriend isn't worth my time. Please don't ask me why i'm with him. Please stop wondering what i see in him. It's rude.

No one understands, no one knows. No one gets it, but that's not my problem...in fact it shouldn't even matter to anyone who i decide to date and give my love to. By the way, looks aren't everything. It's not. Get that straight, and maybe i'm just not a shallow bitch. Maybe i look for so much more that looks. His personality and everything that he's made up of makes him the sexiest guy out there. In my eyes at least, i don't care what anyones opinion is on him. Say what you'd like, you obviously just don't see what i see in him. You obviously just don't know him.

I love him, and he's everything to me. He's better than you and anyone else there.

Have You Ever | Brandy

Just wanted you to know

You know i love you, and i can't stress how sorry i am each time i bitch at you for no reason. I really just want to thank you though for being so patient with me, and even when i'm at my worse you're still willing to stand by me and let me know that you're not going anywhere.

There's a song for almost everything.

Even if we fight a million times over little things, we can still make it better

"Never leave the person who understands you more than anyone else. Someone you can talk to about everything and stand next to you even with your unwanted attitudes. Treasure the one that accepts and loves every bit of you."

Thanks for still loving me even when i'm the worst.

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When i get like this, sometimes i would sit here and wonder what the fuck is wrong with me? That thought continously runs through my mind, and i never find the answer. Maybe...maybe i'm just secretly crazy. Fuck that, i can't be. Why do i get like this. I swear, i must be the most emotionally unstable person ever.

The worse part is that when i get like this, i just find reasons to stay this way. I don't really try to think of the greater things to make me brighten up a bit, every little thing can tick me off. Little things can just make me feel worse. I feel bad for anyone who gets hit by my bitchiness.

I'm sorry in advanced...

I try hard to control myself, i swear...it's crazy because you'd never think that i'd be this way. If you get to know me enough...you'll have to deal with me being like this. I'm unreasonable, stubborn, and think irrational when i'm like this. Sometimes i'd fall into my own little "mini depression" when i'm just at home by myself...and then i sit here and then i feel like i even make myself purposely sad. I have a problem.

Right now all i want is to be with my boyfriend, and talk to him.

Everyone is out enjoying their night, and i'm at home moping around.

I'm ashamed of myself, i really am.

My question is, why is he so nice to me when all i do is bitch at him for no reason...

Booboo

Some people would ask, "Why are you with him?" and some would say, "She can do so much better." I was even asked once when do i think it would end because there are a lot of guys out there that would be glad to take his place. In my head, i just think that's rude. I don't understand how some people and just go about wondering where my head is at dating this boy. I really just don't know what i say to that. I mean i answer them, i tell them why i'm with him and i tell them it'll be a while till it's over and i let them i know that i can't do better.

When i say that i can't do better, what i mean is that...well he's already the best i've ever had. Maybe i can do better, but when people from the outside say "She can do better" they're just looking at whats on the outside. They look at him and then they look at me and they think that i can find someone better looking. Maybe even of a higher class or someone who has something going for themselves. Thing is, they don't even know us like that. They don't know him like that for sure. Well...sure, i could do better look wise. I'm just saying that maybe i could find a sexy ass guy.

But no guy will ever compare to what my man has. No guy can compare to what he has to offer for me, and what he's capable of. I love every inch and ounce of him. Every little thing, i absolutely adore. To be honest here, i've encountered good looking guys but for some reason they just never cut it for me. They just didn't do me justice. They weren't what i wanted. Why did he? I don't know...i guess he really is just something different. And he really is. He's the best i've ever had, and the best i've ever been with. He's amazing in every way. And i think he's pretty damn sexy. There is no other guy i'd rather have. I'll chose him over Bradley Cooper and Chris Pine.

So when one asks why i'm with him, why i like him...well, he's perfection for me. He hasn't yet done me wrong, and that's something. Cause every guy i've associated myself with does me wrong with a blink of an eye. He's the sweetest thing, and i just know he cares. I can tell he does. And...i don't think i've ever liked anyone this much. If anything, not like this. He keeps me at ease, mellow, and happy. And i'm so grateful for him. He's even patient with me, and i love that.

I want to thank him for everything he's done, and just for being there for me all the time

But the real question should be, Why is he with me? I really feel bad for him sometimes, cause he could do better. In looks, brains, attitude, and privileges...well he's with me, and he's mine. So i'm content.

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Your Song

One word: Beautiful.

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p.s. I still miss my boyfriend.

2 Week Notice

I got my hair thinned out today, and i cut my bangs. I kind of wish i didn't. :x

I don't know, i just realized maybe i should have just relayered my hair or something, but i feel like all my layers are gone. I had at least 3-4 layers in my before and now i only have two. But my hairs hella light now. I feel like my friend made it too thin. Shit. It's going to take forever to grow back out fully, for me to get it fixed. Its whatever, not such a huge disaster. As for my bangs? Well, i look like a little kid again. Also, i'm not used to short bangs anymore, its hella bothering my face. Lol.

I covered my girl Gigi's shift for her today at work. I went in and let my manager know that i'm quitting. Commuting from UC is not the business. Plus, i seriously think he has a problem with me. I don't want to be under the management of a bias boss. He has favorites and everyone knows it. Whatever though. I want to buy as many shows as i possibly can before my last day. Only problem is that i don't think i really want to blow all my money on shoes of all things before i'm out of a job. So maybe it isn't such a good idea? I bought a pair of cognac leather flats though. I think those may just be worth it cause it's real leather. I kind of want the opinion of my boyfriend first. For some reason i feel like his opinion kind of matters on what i get...should it not? LOL i'm not even sure. I haven't been getting much hours lately, so i feel like working there is just a drag. Even the new hires are getting more hours than Lisa and i am -__-

Well, it's time for a new job. It was fun working there while it lasted. All the ALDO girls are about to quit anyways, so staying will be no fun. At least all the girls that i like there are leaving. :p Now Lisa and i are leaving too.

I miss my boyfriend.

♥

Lucky Girl

I went to Babe's house earlier tonight cause earlier in the day he wanted me to come over to keep him company while he set up his new T.V. No one was suppose to be home, but then when he got off work he told me that his dad didn't have work tonight and his little brother is back from his aunties. So i sat in his living room with his dad and little brother and we watched him set up their new T.V in the living room.

His dad made steak and i ate it because his little brother told me if i didn't eat, his dad will keep telling me to eat till i actually ate. And shoot, i don't know. I heard something about filipinos that if you don't eat when they offer you food, it's considered lightweight rude. And so i ate it. Just a little. Shit i was hella full though cause i ate hella at Red Robins before i went to his house.

Anyways, i was sitting there quietly watching him set up the television. His dad kept telling me how smart he is, and he was telling me that he must treat me well huh? Or something like that. But he was really letting me know that i'm lucky to have him. Gosh i know. I'm really lucky to have him. He's the sweetest thing. For his dad to even tell me i'm lucky, i bet i'm definitely lucky. He's a keeper for me. I want to keep him forever. Or for as long as i could. :p

He's mine now.

♥