Camping

I went camping last weekend, June 22nd and June 23rd. We were actually planning on staying the whole weekend, at least till the end of Friday but my mom had to go home and help my sister out with some wedding stuff. So, we ended up leaving Thursday night. Which i totally didn't mind at all because i just hella wanted to go home to shower, and hopefully see babe Friday. Originally the plan was that the whole family would go on the trip together Thursday and Friday, but my brother's girlfriend accidentally told the family the wrong date (Thurs & Fri) so my sister's BF took those two days off; however it turned out that the camping date was actually suppose to be for Wednesday & Thursday. So, as a result to that, my sister and her boyfriend couldn't go because my sister had a lot to do that weekend also. So now what we're going to do is go camping as a family probably at the end of the month.

I'm not much of a nature type of girl, or maybe i can say that i am? The only thing i don't like about camping are the bugs. The bugs are disgusting and they love my blood. Everything else is pretty nice. It's weird cause usually i'm not down to get dirty and stuff but you put me in the woods, and i dont care if i'm sitting on the floor or crawling through stuff and what not. Maybe that goes for most people? Nature is so great though. I don't know. You don't see that kind of beauty here in the city/suburban areas. So when you get that chance, you gotta embrace and appreciate it in any way that you can. Right? Yah...

We did a lot. Or at least it seemed that way. I mean, we weren't sitting around doing nothing for two days. For some crazy reason though, my dad hella just wanted to sit at the campsite all day with a can of beer and "enjoy the scenery". I guess that would sound reasonable...but i was pretty blown away by how he didn't really have much of an interest of doing stuff as a whole family. Strange, but whatever. He went along anyways, for a while at least. We went hiking. It was a longass hike, and this time i wore shorts. I would have been crazy not to, it was hella hot. Our destination was this waterfall. It was such a long hike to get to that point, my dad gave up halfway and sat and rested in the shade and told us to go on. Of course we did, even though i felt bad that he was about to sit by himself for an hour or so. We weren't able to make up all the way, because at one point we had to climb up HELLA rocks, and it was pretty steep. My mom definitely couldn't climb that, and nor was Bunny able to. So my mom and i told my brother and his girlfriend to just go. We didn't expect them to be gone for so long, but it took awhile. Lena, my mom, and i decided to just walk back to find my dad. Then we waited for my brother there.

The view that my brother took a picture of when he got up there definitely seemed like it was worth the climb. Wish i went up there with them so i could see that. Oh well, opportunity lost.

I went hiking in my Toms. Call me crazy, right? But shoot! They're hella comfortable, i swear. Kind of didn't really think much of how dirty they would get, but damn did they get hella dirty. I think it's time for a new pair. I'm not sure what color i should get though...hmmm...

This picture of me though, tell me its not artistic. I was looking at this and hmm...i kind of like it.I guess cause my face got cut out. I had to take my shoes off to walk over this cause i didn't want to accidentally slip and step into the water/mud. Gotta care for the shoes, even though i were putting them through hell.

After the hike, we went fishing. Such a nice way to relax and settle down for a little bit after a long hike. My dad didn't want to stay and fish with us, so we had to bring him back to the campsite. Stayed out fishing till 8pm.

The sight was absolutely beautiful, and i swear fishing could be hella calming. It got boring though after a while because eventually the fish stopped coming. Which was complete bullshit because the people that were there a few minutes before us were catching fish left and right. Then when they left, we took over their spot and we caught about two fish with in a couple of hours. I caught two fish, and i was pretty proud of myself. Hehe.

My greatest accomplishment? I got a nice lovely light tan. :)

Until next time...

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p.s. Hi babe.

Spontaneous

Today sure was something. I don't know. Damn, it really didn't really feel like a Sunday though. I need to start going to church again because i stopped going for a while now. :x I should definitely wake up earlier to go to church, because i'm always not in the mood to go in the afternoon anymore especially when babe gets off of work.

Had to run some errands as a favor to my girl Christina. Babe wanted me to wait for him to get off work so he can go with me. Damn though, i'm definitely not a fan of the mall. It's always so crowded and when it's like that, i'm just not in the mood at all to walk around...

Came back home, and all of a sudden Babe and i decided to drive all the way to Trungs to get a dog. O_O He was talking t me bout how he wanted a Dalmatian. I don't know why he wants one...but he just hella wanted one. Then i asked him if he wanted a mixed pit, cause i remembered that Trung was trying to give his little puppy away. Showed him the picture and he immediately wanted it. We went and got me some Popeyes and went straight to Trungs to pick up the dog. Just like that. It's a cute little thing though.

He decided to name it Jedi after his "clan" name. Bahaha. I guess. It's a nice name, better than Monster for sure. It's such a cute little thing! I wish i could keep it. But damn, having a dog is like having a baby. Hella money to raise it up. The expenses of shots, foods, and what not.

Tell my why today the whole time i was with Babe, i was hella just itching to say something to him. Freals though, I can honestly say that i just feel so lucky. I'm so lucky that i met a guy who genuinely cares for me. I'm so glad that he's mine. Hehe. I don't think i can ask for much more...really.

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Saturdays

Hm...days like these are just so great. I really look forward to the weekends, just so i can spend time with the Boyfriend. This distance thing kind of sucks, but i mean...what do people even consider "long distance" anyways. We're only about 30 minutes apart. Hahah. Compared to those other couples that are located in a whole different state, or even country. I don't know. I think it's mostly difficult cause he's always working and i have a curfew. Otherwise, if i didn't have a curfew i bet i would see him more often. Damn. I WISH.

Seriously, i think my mom is crazy, and she may just not understand. Yah, i know she's looking out for me...but wow it's crazy! You know what she said to me today? Holy shit it was funny. Can't believe she even thinks this. Well basically she told me that i see my boyfriend too much, and i'm with him too much that it's not good. Yah, she thinks that me being comfortable with him is not a good thing because apparently i'm putting myself in danger. Because he's a nice guy. BECAUSE nice guys are "the ones you have to protect yourself from", because "they're the worse". Who has ever heard of this right? I mean, i understand her logic behind it...but still. Its like she wants me to go out there and meet an asshole to get my heart broken...what the hell man. WHAT THE HELL! -________________- She's definitely looking out for me, but she's going a little overboard with it. Thinking that i shouldn't be so comfortable with him. Pfft. Crazy nut. How do i even explain such a thing to her? Ladies/girls/women these days aren't as conservative as they used to be. I'm not even sure if that's a good or bad thing...i think majority of us are smart enough to keep ourselves in check. Sometimes accidents happen, and that's just unfortunate. Most of us are independent and don't even need a guy by our side. Shit, i don't even know what i'm saying now. Well...this is the first time my mom has ever really seen me with a guy. I guess i don't blame her. She's not used to it yet. I'm suppose to be her baby and here i am in the arms of another guy. Okay, i guess i get it. She'll get used to it eventually. She better get used to it.

My dog smells.

Cleaned the house this morning (well afternoon) as soon as i woke up.

Then spent the rest of the day with Boyfriend.

Hmm...i definitely look forward to the days that i get to spend with him. Sucks cause most of the time i have to work on weekends. Which is difficult cause he's always working weekdays, and i'm usually working weekends. So...we have to somehow make some time to see each other. Which is usually after one of us gets off work. If anything, i'd love it if i don't have to work Saturdays. Past few weeks i've been working Saturdays, so it was nice to finally not have to. I actually didn't even have to work all week this week! I'm not sure if that's a good thing either...I'm not making money. :l

Damn my dog smells. o_o

Today...hm...today, i really enjoyed my day today. I was in one of my moods.

Where i'm hella happy, and i had no idea why. I guess he could tell. I hated that moment when he had to leave though. Wish i could spend every day with him. Wish money just grew on trees so we didn't have to work and could be together more often. Bahaha. Holy shit it sounds like we work hella or something. Well he works hella.

The honeymoon stage. Can you tell? Yah...well, it's nice. I don't mind it.

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*249am. Still up...I guess the best time to blog is after hours.

His voice...

I love the sound of his voice on the phone. It's a shame i barely ever get to hear it.

When i do though, it's nice. I wish it would just last longer, listening to him speak. But it doesn't.

I guess he's just no into that kind of stuff...which is really unfortunate, because i am.

Guys my age

For the longest time i have realized that i'm pretty attracted to older guys. Usually it's two years older and up. One year older works for me also i suppose. Well i'm not sure what that is. I think that maybe it has something to do with their maturity level? Does anyone have any say in this? I heard something, and i'm sure its scientifically correct. Something about a women's mind set matures faster than a guys, and a guys mind is usually two years younger than their actual age. I suppose that's where the whole attraction of guys 2 years + comes into play.

I don't usually go for guys my age. I guess the first guy i ever actually really "dated" that was my age was Eric. That was way back during Freshman year of highschool though. Well, let's just say that didn't really work out...at all. It was pretty much disastrous in some ways. Naive, innocent, shy little kids we were. Well that was the first failed relationship of mine with a guy my age.

I'm trying to figure this out. Well its 2:04am, and i just have a lot going through my mind right now. Things are going wrong, things are going right. I don't know.

Well anyways, in my opinion, maybe older guy + a younger girl would generally click better because maybe they're just more comfortable that way. As in, the older guy feels more in power, feels more mighty cause here's his young little thing looking up to him. They may not think about age but i mean...its clear. Is it? Is it not? And then she, just feels more protected, more comforted with him. Okay i don't know where this bullshit is coming from. It's different for everyone.

It's also people's compatibility with each other. The connection, the way two people are. How you cope with things, the way you handle situations.

What i'm trying to say is...

Well, i never go for guys my age cause i personally don't really think i'm that compatible with guys my age. Just for some reason. It never really seems to click. Then for some reason, here i am...with my Boyfriend who is my age. Something different, i said.

Sometimes i think to myself though, maybe it's not really something different. I question it sometimes, and i tell myself not to.

I am my worse enemy at night. -____-

Heat

So its finally here. Summer finally hit. FINALLY. I thought it would never come.

However, i guess we can never really be satisfied by the weather, huh?

Its too cold, too rainy, not warm enough, and too hot.

Seriously though, it was too hot today. To the point where i just collapsed on my couch and laid there. I think most of it had to do with the fact that my house does not have an AC. All bad, i was suffocating in here. And i hate that feeling when my body is moist or something. You know what i mean?

I stayed home today though, nothing to really do. Most people are busy with their own things. Like Lisa with her man, Henry with his lady, Justin...with his weed. LOL. Just kidding. Too lazy to really drive down there though. The AC in my car sucks too, i feel like its not blowing enough cold air for me. Its kind of like just that air that the fan blows at you when its sucking up the warm air and blowing the same warm air back at you...so basically its like warm wind. Doesn't do anything to help cool you down. Ugh.

I barely even wore clothes today too.

Bahahah. Short booty shorts and a wife beater.

This distance thing is hard. I like it here in SJ though. I'm close to a lot more people that are super down to kick it with me. I'm too lazy to go down to Fremont, and people from Fremont don't want to come down to me. Well i don't know. It is summer, still waiting for it to escalate.

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Can't Do Better

The remake of this song by Jo Jo slaps.

I was listening to this, and then i realized how relevant this was to me at one point...and it brought back some memories. Damn.

He got a new chick. Just a little barbie doll. I feel so pathetic, but you still haven't heard it all.

Fuck that new girl that you like so bad, she's not crazy like me i bet you like that. I said fuck that new girl that's been in your bed, and when you're in her i know i'm in your head.

You know how sometimes you hear a song, and you can just relate to it so well? Or in some way? Or you listen to a song and it just brings you back to a certain time...or reminds you of a certain someone.

I'm just sayin you can do better. Always turned you out when we were together. Once you've had the best you can't do better. Baby i'm the best, you can't do better.

This is one of those songs. Has me thinking.

Class of 2011

Graduated High School June 13, 2011.

I almost cried of pure joy, but didn't. It was so unreal though. I couldn't believe, as i was sitting there waiting for my name to be called, that i was really about to graduate.

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Frustration

I remember when i was with the ex, i got frustrated a lot. A lot of fighting, and crying went on. Come to think of it, i think it was mostly all me. I was sensitive about thing, and expected a lot. Little things ticked me off. I mean things that the ex was bothered by but not yet mad about, got me off and made me feel the need to start something. A lot of our little fights started off from me. I probably over exaggerated things. It was all me, i think. I think. I'm not sure. Probably.

Anyways, i remember telling the ex i'll change that because i know i shouldn't be expecting too much anyways. Theres no way you can really be happy if you expect too much. Just let things be.

Sometimes i feel myself getting a little bit frustrated cause at times i get slightly unhappy with little things. Then i breathe and realize that, that's just how it is. He's tired and i can't do shit about it. So...its okay. Can't get mad at him like that, i'll scare him away. :l

But, see? I'm getting better...

Three Days

The other day Boyfriend realized that June doesn't have a 31st. (See how i can use "Boyfriend" now? Heh.) Then he realized that the 31st only comes every other month. Hahaha. Well now we're unsure of what to do when the end of this month comes around. But yah, like i said, i guess we will figure something out.

So Prom? Prom was on Saturday. It was fun. I enjoyed myself, first time going to a dance with someone i liked. School dances aren't really my thing anymore though, but it was good overall. I guess i'm just not into butt grinding anymore...its just a bit dirty. I don't know how i would handle clubbing...i guess i'd just have to drink or something to loosen myself up a bit. Haha. But anyways. Yah it was nice. We were kind of just trying to leave Prom though the whole time to hit up the after party. The after party was at the Crowne Plaza, the beds were hella comfortable! I've never even been in the Crowne Plaza before but i'm surprised how nice the beds were. I wish i could have slept there, really i wish i could have. Haha. I ended up going home around 5am. If only my mom would actually let me "sleep over" at a friends house, i would have stayed out all night. Damn i can't wait till i can do that actually...if i can ever get that opportunity, which come to think of it i don't think it'll come to that.

No pictures from prom, i didn't bring my camera because really? Who the hell would i even take a picture with...i didn't know anyone. Bleh.

Well damn, i'm graduating in 3 days. June 13th is the day! Shit i'm so anxious, Monday needs to come already. The only thing i'm a little sad about is that i'm getting absolutely nothing from my family because they don't think its a big day enough to be giving me stuff. Which sucks because i was really hoping for some dinero. Then again...since when has my family really given me anything for anything? Yah...that doesn't usually happen. As other people get 500 +, i'll be getting zippooo, nothing, nada. Cause we're poor and i don't really have much relatives around here to really even care. I guess i just need to deal with it. Bleh

But three days everyone! Three days and i'm out. Yee.

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Junshien

I've been lazy lately, so some photos should suffice.

These are some of the pictures taken at the Japenese Garden in SF with Junshien. It was the photoshoot to raise money for Japan. Yes, we donated money for the Japan victims and had our pictures taken. Never done anything like this before. It was a cool experience and Junshien is such a chill guy. He's a friend of one of Lisa's room mates.

Smile, smirk, half smile, fake smile, laugh. Wish we had more. I like pictures. Hehe. My brother wants to practice his photography on Lisa and me also when it starts getting warmer. Whenever that would be.

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Only problem with this is that not every month has a 31st.

How would i even keep track of this. LOL. Its okay, Kathy can do anything.

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