wwiii

Damn. Can't believe that there is this possibility of a world war 3. Never even thought something like this would even occur in my life time! I've heard of many wars as i was growing up. Okay, well not really. I've only heard of the Iraq war, but that didn't even matter much to me. I didn't know much of it. I was kind of scared though, i thought that we would get bombed. Never happened though. Phew.

Well just that fact that this is wwiii, it scares me! Oh gosh, i hope America will be okay. I hope that this isn't as big as it sounds. I hope the south korean people are all okay too.

I feel like i should go watch the news. Or at least continue being updated with this. I don't really follow up on these kind of things. I'm a bit slow.

Eeek. I'm scared. :x

EDIT: My friend and i were having a conversation bout this...

Friend: if another country nukes them or something then they will nuke back

i forgot what that policy was called
Kathy: 12:11 am
haha
i definitely...would not know
either
Friend: 12:11 am
its pretty interesting since it could basically mean like the end of the world lol

hopefully it never goes to that level
Kathy: 12:12 am
O_O
2012!!!!!!!!!
AHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
AHHHH!!!!!!!!~!!!!
Friend: 12:12 am
ohhhhhhh

wow

forgot bout that
Kathy: 12:12 am
AHHHHH
imma cry
Friend: 12:12 am
very interesting

if thats true we have like 1 year and like 3 weeks left

Well okay.

Who am i trying to fool here? No actually, what the hell am i trying to do...

Its pretty ridiculous actually. Maybe even a little bit embarrassing if anything.

Oh my goodness, i am so pathetic. Really am. I have nothing else better to do with my useless life. I sit around all day listening to music that have me thinking bout him. Haha what the hell. Unsure what has gotten into me because i'm pretty sure, thats not how it is. I kind of just miss the old days. Doesn't matter if there aren't any feeling involved. It's the pure friendship i want. Maybe i am just expecting a little bit more. Which i really shouldn't because i'm not even in that state of mind to even be wanting any of that "compassion".

Hey, i'm just a lonely girl. I've always been. All i really want is some company.

What could be my answers for this. Maybe i'm done with the whole "i'm trying to be single thing". Maybe i have fell back into that whole i want a guy thing again. No that really can't be.

Gosh who am i trying to fool.

I'm making a fool of myself, i know it. It's ridiculous, i can't stress that enough. I should seriously have more pride in myself. I shouldn't be bringing myself down to that level of that creep.

Haha oh my gosh, i really can't help it though.

I mean, i tell myself. I tell myself that i really shouldn't be doing this because he is so done with me that, this thing i'm doing is just going to annoy him. Uhm...

I guess. He told me i'd regret it. Maybe i do now. Maybe i'm a bit sad that things can never be the same. Things will never really be pleasant between us. No matter what. No matter how much time has gone by. That's just how it is. Can't do anything about it. As much as i would try to make it work, it wont. Simply because its not mutual in any way.

So here i am. I seem to have lost some pride here. And writing this probably just made me lose more. Now i feel a little more pathetic than i was at first.

Haha okay bye.

Boots

The boots i ordered finally came in today! Yay! :)

I'm glad i got these online rather than at the store, cause they're super new and nobody else has put their feet in them yet! (At least i hope not) Also the color isn't faded or anything. I got a half size smaller than usual. Which is weird cause i though that when you get boots, if anything you should get a half size bigger...well the lady told me theyre suppose to stretch out. So they better stretch out, cause they're a bit snug.

When i wrote "boots" in the title thing, i accidentally wrote "boobs" instead. Haha.

Well i just got home right now from helping my sister with a wedding. Boy was it tiring cause i'm sick. I lost energy faast. The mexican workers that work in the back of the restaurant creeped me out again. I'm sure theyre very nice and friendly.

Haven't helped my sister out for a while. Hopefully she pays me decently. Hehe i need money to go holiday shopping. This year might actually be the first year that i can buy something for each person in my family! Hopefully...which is a bit sad to me because i want to use that money to buy myself pretty things. :(

You know what sucks...

It sucks when you're in a situation where you happen to care more for a person than they care for you. Hmm...i don't know. You would think that since you care for them so much, and make such an effort to see them or whatever that they would at least just...you know, make some time. Blah. Sometimes i feel like i'm annoyance and i shouldn't even try to make an effort. Because making an effort to see people when i'm always getting shut down makes me feel like i'm pathetic. I just can't help it though. I have to try, because i might gain something out of it. However, if i do succeed it'll make me feel awkward when the person actually makes time for me because then i'll feel like i annoyed them so much that they just have to make time for me.

Do you get where i'm going with this...

Oh so yesterday i was at my sister's house and she made me spaghetti. Gosh i love that stuff. Anyways, we watched Julie & Julia...or is it the other way around? I'm not sure. Okay well it was a good movie. I only watched halfway though because i fell asleep. I hope my sister and Lena don't finish watching it without me.

Kay its like 1:02 am. I should get to bed because i have a staff meeting tomorrow morning for work. How cool, my first meeting. I will dread waking up tomorrow morning. :x

Bye!

Long day ahead of me tomorrowww.

School Related topic

Oh my gosh, so i'm glad to say that i am pretty much on the right track to being able to graduate and walk when the day comes!

The only thing holding me back is the damn service hours. I only have 5 hours out of the 40 hours that i need in order to graduate. Serves me right for procrastinating. Gotta hop on that and get it done quick. I don't want this to be the one thing keeping me from getting my high school diploma.

Time to hit up Interact and Key Club.

Happyface

Had a good four day weekend. Well i have one more day left, but i already know i'm not doing anything tomorrow. But i'm feeling happy right now. All smiles and shit. :)

sadface.

Sucks to get flaked on, but sucks even more to get flaked on and not really have an explanation for it.

didn't even call.

Oh hello

Hmm...there isn't much worth writing about anymore.

Life has been so fantastic though! Or at this moment in time at least, i feel that everything is going great. Mostly because i am in a really happy place right now. Senior year is really just amazing. :)

And even better, all this happiness is self happiness and it's not because of someone.

Gotta admit that since the last time i posted, there have been my sad days, and really tragic days but even with that...to think about the unfortunate events aren't bringing me down either.

Bunny, my poodle is getting bigger.

Anyways...i'm here today to say something really irrelevant but typical Kathy stuff.

So i'm sitting here listening to really soothing music. That may have something to do with why i'm happy right now, cause this kind of music really does make me feel mellow. Well i'm sitting here listening to this, being happy and all and i just wanted to say something...but actually now that i think about it, i think i'll just keep it to myself.

I'm back into my old lazy habits now. I come home from school and i nap everyday. There isn't anything to really do anymore. :(

K. Bye. ♥