Update: 12/16/12

I've been so busy lately, which is a good thing in a way. I started working about three weeks ago, and from then i've just been doing work and school every other day till evening. Now that school is over for break, i'm going to be starting to work full time starting tomorrow. Everyday so far has been sort of the same routine. Work/School, come home in the evening, have dinner, go to gym, come home and rest for the next day. I'm glad i have weekends off though, except i've been helping my sister out again whenever she has weddings - just to get extra cash. Been chasin' paper :p

So this is exhaustion? Working, not having time for yourself? I haven't had the time to just sit here and blog about my thoughts, or to chill and do my nails! I don't have the energy when i get home from work/gym to clean. Well i do, i just want to because that couple hours after the gym is the only time i get to just relax. I'm not exhausted, per ce...just tired. I wonder if i'm over working myself? You know, sometimes i'd be so tired, but i'd still conjure up the energy to go to the gym for a little bit. I could get a day off, my work is pretty lenient. What for though right? I like being busy...for once. I'm not over working myself. I'm doing life.

Gym progress update:
I'm going to the gym four days a week now instead of five, just so then i can have some sort of social life on the weekends. If i happen to have nothing to do on Fridays, i'd go to the gym. I think i need to take it down a bit with my work outs. I'm doing good with flattening out my stomach, but at the same time i think i'm getting skinner...which is not good at all. I think after i'm satisfied with my tummy, i'm going to fatten out again. I honestly don't know what to do about my weight problem...i need some protein bars or something! If anyone that's reading knows any way for me to get healthy fat (that wont just sit at my stomach) please share!! I've also started to do yoga, twice a week. I hope to increase my flexibility and whatever else yoga is suppose to do for me. I'm getting used to it, because when i first started out it was really hard!

I feel like in really contradicting myself, trying to get fatter yet i keep going to the gym? I really do want to gain weight, and get a bit chubbier. I want to be at least 110 or something...it's never been easy for my to gain weight. But i'm not going to the gym to lose weight, i'm going to tone up, get some muscle weight, and lose tummy fat! I need to talk to someone about this.

Endorphins. :)
No progress shot today.

I guess that's it for now! Toodles.
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