I want to cuddle

and im kinda bummed

Envy

Went to the Movies today with EricLiu, Ilene, Justin, EricYai, and Rhonda.
We watched The Time Traveler's Wife, well e.liu, ilene, justin and i did but eric yai and rhonda watched something else. i forgot what...well time travelers wife was a good movie [: I liked it, got to shed a few tears. It was pretty sad. :l

Sorta envy...the person i could have been, if i were to stick to a different path. Kinda jealous of the person i dislike cause her life is totally better off without me. Wish she wasn't such a bitch to me, cause it might've been nice to still be her friend...maybe.

Lets see where life brings me.

I like youtube

Its sad

to see people sad...
and it hurts me to see my sister in so much pain...in this oh so fragile state she's in.
I just want her to be happy, and i want to do something to make everything all better for her.
but right now all i can do is pray and be here for her when she needs it.

i hope everything will be better for her soon. I don't want her to feel this pain she's feeling anymore.

Its not fair is it. :l

Thankyou!

So yesterday i was at my sister's house and i ended up stuck there for the night cause my little niece lost the damn car keys -_- to make everything worse, i was hella hungry...there wasn't anything to eat at my sister's except ramen i guess...I hella wanted to eat ice cream but my sister said yea we can go buy some only if we find the keys. Well, we never found them :l

Today was a good day(: I got the ice cream i wanted from last night! :D Caramel <3 yum.
I ate it all by myself on the way to SantaCruz. Hehe

Went to Santa Cruz for my birthday today. Yay. My friends, Justine&Lisa, planned it out for me. Thanks guys <3 It was really nice. I had funn. They invited Becca & Patrick, who had friends that they knew that were going to the beach also. So i got to meet new people today (: Everyone was hella nice, and made my day. I also gotta kickit with Sean Ng.

The ocean water was hella cold! Freakin Justine pushed me in...& thene second time going in, Lisa dragged me in. But its all good cause i got used to the water and it actually wasnt that bad after a while. Haha. We were gonna have a bonfire but then since i have never been to La Vics before, we decided to go there instead (: I got the Super Quesidilla. It was good, except for some reason it was all watery -_- I dont know...I kinda ate a lot today. Thinking about food is sorta making me sick. Bleh.

Went to Patricks after La Vics & Patrick gave Lisa his Dwarf Hamster. Haha. Its hella cute, but it creeps me out. Its so small and quick...i dont know ><

Wish i coulda stayed out longer, but i was pretty tired. Long day :l

I wonder when im getting that laptop...
& i needa do situps...i wonder when i will get to doing those.

Kay hella beat now, gonna sleep <3

Thankyou everyone for the birthday wishes & thankyou Justine&Lisa for making my birthday something that i totally enjoyed. (:3

Well that didn't work

MY LIFE IS SO INCREDIBLY BORING...

i actually missed him. My friend...i missed my friend.
cause i love my friend. Hmph. Personally, i really just hate loosing people that once mattered in my life. And since he once mattered, he will always matter...but i think im loosing him.
Is it so wrong to want to be friends? Hm...i guess it isnt ever going to work the way i hope it could. Because, i've messed up so much before in the past that now its just impossible. IMPOSSIBLE.
& now i want to go hang out with my friend, but really, there's not use. Erm...
Just jumbled thoughts.
as if my life wasnt shitty enough?

but life is going well.

maybe i shouldnt have asked.
maybe i should just get wasted. Everything is better that way.
"above the influence" kthnx.

cant wait for school to start (: hehe. Miss seeing people.

august 17 - get registration packets
YAY!


I like this commercial (:
hehehe. makes me smile. Maybe its the song.
her kisses sweeter than a cherry pie

Sexy?

hell yes. Why? Cause theyre both in red.
[:

Couch Potato

No energy!
All i did today was sit on the couch and watched T.V
I catcched up on my Real World, and boy was it intense o:
& then i watched some Nickelodeon&Disney Channel with Lena...
The wholeee day went by in a flashh.
Ended my Couch Potato time with Confessions of a Shopaholic. Good movie i must say (:

I still wanna watch 500 days of Summer. SIGH.
& all those other movies. I wonder if i will ever get to it.

I'm not getting my laptop till next week, i'm guessing? Since my brother is outta town till Sunday. Darn. ):
Better be worth the wait :D

Summer is here now

It was hella hot today!
But luckily, i was able to go swimming (:
HEHE. I think i got a bit tanner...now my ass is even more white. o:

I'm tryna re-arrange my room...and im thinking about some serious furniture shopping.
i need :
- dresser
- desk
I wanna go to IKEA! :D

i hope i actually get to it...i never really do what i say :/ Sighsigh.

Guess what? I finished Eclipse! Yea, i stayed up till like 430 am last night reading it. Ahh so intense. Im dying to go get Breaking Dawn. Gosh im sucha freak :/
But not as much of a freak as tram is.

I kinda wish i had something to read...the computer has become a boring source of entertainment for me. Its so great to find a book that youre really like into. Its intense...when ure hooked, cant put it down. I dont know...but i like it.

blocked

5 days?
& that makes me sad...

Urination

I've been quite cheerfull lately. And its just great. Not that im not generally a happy person...just i haven't been sad for a while. I think im learning how to become stronger with my emotions and overcome everything. I know fersure that i wasn't always so weak cause i knew better. Does that make sense? I dunno. (:

Im excited for this week. HEHE.

Theres like nothing to eat at home right...? So when i woke up this afternoon, yes afternoon, i was starving. I went around looking but there was nothing...all the food was like my brothers and he wouldnt let me eat it. AH THAT JERK. sighsigh. Well...then i kind of just died in my room. Got a little bit further into my book and then the doorbell rang. AND GUESS WHO IT WAS! My saviorr. Lisa came over with In 'n' out and saved my life. (: So then after i ate, i ragained some energy and went out with her for a bit and came home.

now im pretty damn bored...so im gonna go read some more.

i.am.lame.

Megan wasnt a Millionaire

I can’t wait till i get my laptop…that is if i even get it. I really hope my mom sticks to her word. This computer i’m using is so annoying sometimes. I guess it gets too hot sometimes, and it just shuts off. & there’s something wrong with my internet, cause earlier i was using it, and it kept like closing everything. Sigh. Well i just think everything might be easier with my own things (: Plus i’m tired of sharing with my daddy. I’m so lameeee, cause i have nothing else better to do than sit infront of the computer. Bleh.

Well anyways, since i share the computer with my dad he always like wants to use it, especially nowadays for his little anti-communist thingy & work. ANYWAYS so he needed to use it so i went to watch t.v and the were showing Megan Wants a Millionaire on t.v. I was like ‘wow, what a gold digger’ I find it interesting how those guys arent bothered by, but i guess cause she’s a “hot” blonde and all…why not? Maybe its also for fame…and money? But they’re millionaires ._. Usually like at the end of each “love search” , if u call it that, the person gives out like money rewards at the end, like congrats i picked you! here’s some cash. Right? Or maybe not…maybe im geting my shows mixed up. Okay, well so i was watching it and its actually funny. Haha. I only saw the intro, like when she met the guys. I was kinda annoyed that she wouldnt put her dog down, but whatever. I thought it was funny to see all the guys come to her, and have her greet them. I dont know…

Speaking of shows…i forgot to keep up with the real world. OH NOOO… D:

I'm halfway through Eclipse HEHE. Its getting interesting. i skipped like 2 pages though...cause i was too tired to read those two pages. Talked bout some native stories that im sure would have been useful to understand something later in the story, but i found super boring. But yea, i kinda spent the majority of my day reading cause the computer was way too boring.

I want to be taken on a date.

Eclipse

I got the third book of the twilight series everyone (:

Im kinda sleepy right now. I might just go read, till i fall asleep i guess.

wish i was out ):

byess

TapEx

Got kicked outta class today during first period.
Mr. Lee is gay, i dont like him one bit. The only reason i wanna show up to class tomorrow is to see him get bitched at by everyone...then leave.

Spent the whole day at PCtap today with Justine, Lisa and Chris. It was nice. But then kinda boring at the same time. Ahah. We made hella friendship bracelets. Actually Justine did. Lisa made a few, and i just made two. (:

Can't believe i have a history final tomorrow, gonna bomb that shit ):
LAME....

Kay, Toodles.

BUT FIRST....



r o f l

This one is for you.

So my friend sent me this song by this viet guy that lives in franceee. I thought it was amazing how like he had borken english, but when he sang...it was amazing.
http://www.youtube.com/user/lunazian

I tried to make quesidillas today. Epic fail...i burned it -_-
Good thing there isn't culinary at school anymore, cause i'd probably burn the school down. Shiet. I'll never be a good housewife now. QQ

I wish i was capable of doing something that can like "wow" someonee. Like sing, or play an instrument. o: Wouldn't that be nice. [:

Oh yea, i cleaned my room yesterday. I wonder how long i can keep it clean for.
My plan for tomorrow is to come home from school, and sweep my room. I'm like a dog. I shed hair. I guess its cause i'm always like doing my hair and my hair falls on my floor ._. If u you like walk around in my room with socks on, you'll have kathy hair on your feet. ahahah. I wish i had a vacuum. Vacuuming is fun :D

Damn. Can't believe summer school is ending in TWO days. Shiet, this summer is going by fast.
i wonder what im gonna do with the rest of my summer now that summer school is over.

KAY THATS IT! :D

bye e.liu!

Nah nah nah

Shawty is like a melody in my head that i cant keep out.

she told me to get over it.
also said, nothing even even happened to begin with.


What is there to do tomorrow?

Pathetic

He doesn't pay attention to me as much as i do to him.
Also, he doesn't know i'm paying this much attention to him either.
If he were to find out...who knows right?
I'm just this pathetic. Im so disgusted with myself. I'm ashamed.
Sorry i'm the way that i am, i really cant help myself. I'm tryna control everything.
Going Crazy...

Wasting my time chasing the wrong person. Wasting my time, and in the end all i gain is disappointment. I'm gonna just sit back, relax and come what may.

I told someone that i go to god when i'm hella down, and i nee guidance. I also go for him when i'm really thankful for something. Then that person told me that you don't just go to God when you're feeling down or something, you should be going to him all the time, everyday. Something something. Then i was like shoot...i'm horrible -_-

So recently, ive heard people tell me that my blog is hella emo. Its not, i was just depressed. I guess my life is just completely sad. Things just overwhelm me and its aggravating
AHHH. Hey, tell me what you have noticed most?
I have hella problems. I think i need therapy, or some reasurrance that im not this person that i think i am. BUT REALLY?! who are you kidding, you can't tell me im not this kinda person, cause i certainly am. You may not think so but you just dont know the story behind it. Its redonkulous. Even if he tells me i'm not, and that everything i do is actually okay to him, it really isnt in other peoples eyes. But then again...that would still be better than anything. He doesn't know. Whatever. Now look what im doing.

Tell me why American Apparel's website is like a porno, except the people have clothes on.

Lets hope tomorrow will be a good day (:

Gibberish

Wanna make your rubber bands last longer?
Just refrigerate them [:

i Just ate 3 cuties, also known as clementines

Well, i had more to write about...but then my daddy needed to use the computer and then while he was using it i lost my train of thought. Sigh -_-
i need to learn how to remember things. Maybe then, i'll be able to do better in biology and history. I'm like a goldfish, except my memory span is a little bit over three seconds.



When i was listening to this song, i suddenly felt a bit sad. I'm not sure why. haha. I just started to miss hella people, and wanted to see em.

I'm feeling this huge urge to go out, get wasted, and enjoy myself in anyway possible.

Give me a hug, i'd like one. Thanks.

FOUR MORE DAYS OF SUMMER SCHOOL EVERYONE! o: whooo.
but i cant say i wont miss it, cause i will. Wow...i actually will. Summer school was nice..

hi sean
just incase you decide to read this...

Going to SF tomorrow, to see Justine's art exhibition.
Then...staying home for the rest of the day. LAME -_-
My mom needs to free me.

Someone's special day is coming up <3

btw; I love Rachel Mcadams. [:
hehe. The time's traveler's wife! o: ahhh