ColorGenics

So like yesterday, Justin told me to do this thing where i have to put these colors in order? And then like it determines what kinda person i am by the order i put the colors in. Does that make sense? It was pretty weird o:
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Name: kathy nguyen
Date: 7/31/2009
Colorgenics Number: 34125607

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Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.

Pharell Williams

Kathy (11:39:47 PM): is that

Kathy (11:39:51 PM): pharrelll?!!

Tram (11:40:45 PM): YEA

Tram (11:40:47 PM):

Kathy (11:40:50 PM): DAMN

Kathy (11:40:51 PM): SEXY

Tram (11:40:54 PM): I KNOW!!!

Forget Chris Brown everybody.
Pharell Williams is one sexy piece of man candy. <3
Daaammnnn o:


hehe.

movies!

Someone watch a movie with me [:
The Time Travelers Wife - August 14
Funny People - July 31
Julie & Julia (sorta...) - August 7
The Ugly Truth

:d

IM A HAPPY GIRL

Nigga you gay.

Beach?

Went to Santa Cruz first time this summer.

He

Just pisses me off.
but sometimes i just love him.
bestfriend?
well i was hoping so...
yea i have to admit that i'm mean, but i dont even know why. i'm tryna fix it.
Cause we both know that im not generally a bitch, right?

dont lie. but you know it, we both need to grow up and love each other.

sorry babe.

Bipolar or what?

VERY BIPOLAR
someone savee meee

i'm feeling okay now.
thanks guys...

suicide

im too scared to kill myself
im scared its gonna hurt.

if i pay someone to do it for me, does that person have to pay for it...
but what if i asked them to and they were just doing me a favor.

nobody cares.

Headache.

Woke up this morning, was feeling nervous to go to school.
Held my breath, head held high...just tryna look like nothing bothers me.
Sat in class, first period, felt incredibly tired. Watched some documentary thing, that was kinda pointless but whatever. Was about to fall asleep and then got a surprise. Went into a shock for just a few seconds. Played it off though.

Everything is fine...i'm good.

That kept me awake for the rest of the period. Kinda made me a bit cheerful, but not really at the same time.Break came, bolted outta there and met up with the girls. Got more little surprises. Even more of a shock than before. "Its all good" Break ended and wow, i did not want to go to second period at all. Got another surprise. Didn't think it was gonna happen but it didnt. Whats going on ._. Made me feel a bit down though. Made me feel confused...I wasn't sure if it was for reals or not. Whadafuxx.
Disappointments throughout the rest of the day. Sadness came upon me.
Looks can be deceiving

I have a feeling that ___ is gonna talk to me bout this.
Lets see bout that.

http://hellokathyy.tumblr.com/post/145779356/friends

Wishing. Hoping. Wanting.

1 Corinthians 13:4

Love is patient and kind; Love is not jealous or boastful; It is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; It does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believe all things endures all things. Love never ends.

I missed church today, im sorry.

is it not true that god loves all of his children no matter what they do. So why not do this one thing cause you'll still be someone god loves with all his heart.

Music is food for the soul

Aids Walk

Went to Aids walk in SF today with Lisa and people part of interact/keyclub.
Lisa and i got to the bart late and rode with people from interact instead of people from keyclub & we got lost, making us late to the thing. Thats okay though (:
It was incredibly boring, i thought i was actually gonna walk for the thing but i didnt, just "served" people. Well i didn't do much. Atleast i got 6 hours of community service.

We shopping, sorta. Didn't really buy much. Today was a tiring day, i just wanna sleep but i gotta do laundry.

Tomorrow i gotta wake up early, once again, to take a shower.
I'm pretty bummed out.
Waiting for a response? Wow...pathetic

I banged my knee into the table, i hope i dont get a bruise. & i hurt my pink toe this morning, while i was getting out of bed. -_-

REBEL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA XU!
Today was my baby's birthday. <3
We had an amazing adventureee. [:
Didn't really do much.
Probably the highlight of everything was our piercings
wooohoo. First time i ever did something against my mom's will and it was thrilling.
i thought i was gonna piss in my pants. :D

Justine got an industial its smexy. [:

okay bye!

Its lisa's birthday

i let my guard down.
trusted
hoped
opened myself up
and in the end all i got was disappointment
i feel pathetic for even feeling down about it all.
i blame myself...stupid mistakes. & now i know
im kinda just pretty much done with boys.

gonna go have fun with my life.


happy birthday lisa, i love u [:

Commercial

CUTEST THING! o:

This was very helpful to me

Say it

aye kathy;

I dont mean to sound sleezy
but tease me, i dont want it
if its that easy

this isnt directed to anyone btw.
just something for myself.
dont trip [:

but its all in the fun of the chase right?
im not after anyone.

Over the rainbow

Every thing is getting better.
I feel happier.

Youre a good person. Youre a good friend. Thank you for caring about me and taking care of me today, i really appreciate it. I'm lucky to have you in my life. And good thing you are now, cause thats what made me feel better.

Everything is getting better, im happy now.

Today was an interesting day. Very interesting...

Last Request is a good song. [:

grant my last request

i need a hug.
and some company.

listned to this song so many times today...
._.

Thought of him.

but whats the point of this anyway.
even though i want it, im not doing anything about it.
and it makes me sad.

if only we could still be friends.

and now im trying to be strong, but maybe its a little too late for that.

Besfriends.

I love them.
they make me smile. <3


my eyes hurt.
i sorta feel like i need to have a good cry. Where are the tears when it actually matters?

lovehate

yea it was sorta a lovehate kinda thing.
i loved every moment of it, but hated most.
past 5 months have been great. even with its ups and downs. "love rollercoaster"
thanks.


just wish you would still be my friend.

In need of a Free Hug

Most people would say like oh she has a sensitive side. But i'm sensitive 24/7
Its ridiculous. But if i remember correctly, i wasnt always sensitive. I would be, only when its actually necessary.
I'm weak. Its hard for me to be strong and get upset.
Just the little one. Little girl.
I can't do anything. I can't stand up for myself. If i were to get beatup. I would die. Cause i can't do shit. If i hate someone, i just hate them...i can't do shit.

Now i wonder, what im capable of.
What if...i'm just a waste of space and air. You know, im just better off sitting at home. Thats what i'm doing now a days anyway. And then people get mad at me for it. What if i like it like this. I like being alone. But i don't.

I'm undecisive. I have a hard time thinking of what i want, saying what i want.
Most used line? : "I dont know"
and people get mad at me for it.

Sometimes, my mom scares me. But i love her. She isnt scary. My mom is actually really nice. She cares for me a lot. She wants whats best for me. I guess she is strict, but whatever. Thats why im afraid though. I'm afraid of he disapproval, or her disappointment. You cant just tell me to just try, make up something, who cares if she says no. I'm weak remember? Im not happy when she says no. I want what i want. Yall gotta understand that my mom isnt like your mom. Your mom lets you go out and play, my mom thinks i go out too much, even though i only go out a bit. I cant go out. People get mad at me. I never try. I try enough. I beileve i try. Thats trying to me, so i am trying. You can't say i dont try cause i do try. I try to please one person, as well as another and also myself. Someone will end up being unhappy.

Little crybaby.
Little weak piece of shit.
I dont like how i am like. Neither does other people. Why bother...

im not "emo". im just depressed.
havent been sincerely happy in a while. I miss that.

tell me why im trapped.
no one saved me. I can only save myself.

Back Hurts.

Sometimes im afraid to speak up and say something cause i'm afraid of the outcome or what someone may think. I believe that i'm a loser.

Slept all day it was nice. Been tired lately. Probably cause of school.
& my back hurts, its probably from yesterday, when my sister sat on me -_-
bright side though, i got tanner. I can see a light tan line from my bikini bottoms. Yeee! :D

Hope tomorrow is a better day. Not that today wasnt, today was very relaxing and all.

San Fransisco soon? Must see when. Spontaneity doesnt work when planning a trip to SF.

I owe Justine Park 81 Buckaroos. - keep forgetting. Sorrrry! ><

Havent been blogging for a while...i wonder why. Nothing much has happened lately. Nothing much on my mind.
I love these relaxing days. You know what i like most? Just hanging out with a friend and talking. relaxing. No worries.relaxing. No worries.

AYE! Pedicure...anyone want to join me?
btw. i'm craving pho. Havent had that in a while o:

I remember when i was little, i drew people with blue eyes. Are blue eyes like nicer? Like...more favorable maybe? Probably, cause its actally pretty. Haha. Well, i realized today while i was looking at lena's barbies, that the majority of barbies have blue eyes. Interesting...

trapped

in a box.
save me...cant breath.