Trick or Treat

Are you going to be a trick ass nigga, or are you going to go treat your lady right?


Happy Halloween everyone.

Beware | Big Sean

When you said it was over,
you shot right through my heart.
Why you let these hoes tear what we had right apart?
Oh, i was so mad i could've seen this right from the start.
You should beware, beware, beware of a woman with a broken heart

Beware | Big Sean

Nice Guy

"I just want a nice guy", that's what all the girls say. They get heart broken by some asshole, and they go on about saying they just want a nice guy. But then do they even really give the genuinely nice guys a chance?

See, i thought i was with a nice guy. I thought i've found the guy that was different from the rest. I guess i was looking at it like, he was a good combination of nice with the hint of bad boy. And i liked that. But i guess that's where i went wrong. Maybe i need a nice guy who is 100% nice, and doesn't even have an ounce of bad flare. But would a nice guy like that be into someone like me. 

Ruse

Can the man i'm suppose to spend the rest of my life with just walk into my life, and swoop me off my feet already. I don't want to play the dating game. I don't want to invest my time, and emotions into someone who isn't going to be "the one" anymore. I don't want to spend my time loving a person who won't love me forever. I'm tired of being hurt, i'm tired of the game. I'm tired of loving someone so much, having feelings like "it's going to be forever, baby"...but it was all a ruse.

Damn.

Real Her | Drake

Inching up to two and a half years. And it's been a while since i've written about Steven. It's like word vomit, when i begin to speak of him. Words just fumble out, and sometimes they don't make sense. My brain is a messed up ball of yarn, and i'm in dire need of some help to unravel it.

Proverbs 3:3

"Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart."

A Man

You can call yourself a man all you want. You think you're mighty, strong, and successful. You walk around with your head high, like your the fuckin' shit. Because you have "women" fawning over you, left and right -- so at least you think. You think you can play us, you think you can talk your way out of any situation. You think you have "swag", and you're one smooth talker.

You think you're a man. But are you?

You can't possibly be a man, if you can't treat women as they should be. You can't possibly be a man, if you can't love the way that God has intended us to. You sex up women, and get your ego up. But a real man, knows how to treat a lady right. He won't mess around with multiple women. He won't need to have the satisfaction that he can get some, wherever, anywhere. A real man will be so blissfully happy with one single woman. And all his love, efforts, and shit will be all for her.

You're not a man. You're still merely a boy. A boy, who is greedy. Who wants more than he can have. Who is not easily satisfied, because what he already has just isn't enough.


It's sort of true though. You'll know how a man will treat you, based off the way he treats his mother.

Prince Charming

Prince Charming...the one all we ladies are looking for. But who is Prince Charming in real life? Is he really the Prince you dream of based of a fairy tale story book?

He's the one you should keep an eye out for. Yes, Mr. Charming. I'm saying, guard your heart with all your might when he comes around. Don't fall so easily with his charming wits, and shit. He's the guy that'll know just the right things to say. He wants you to think that he is indeed the Prince Charming you've been searching for, but it's just a mask he's put up.

The thing with that Mr. Charming that you've ran into it, he's just so good with his words. He knows just the right things to say. Where he can just find the way to say it to who ever he pleases. And when he hurts you deeply, he'll know how to charm his way out of any situation.

Prince Charming will melt your heart with his loving words. He'll tell you how absolutely gorgeous you are, till it gets old. And soon enough, Prince Charming will have to go find another Cinderella to swoon, leaving your heart nice and shattered on the floor at the ball.

So, watch out for Prince Charming. Guard your heart, soul, and every being with him. Till you are sure that he can just be a total prince, and not just a charming one.

Wrecking Ball

Don't you ever say,
I just walked away
I will always want you...

I'm not the biggest fan of Miley Cyrus, mostly for the image that she is putting out there for herself. I guess i could respect her for doing her. But whatever, besides the point. Her song Wrecking Ball, was a song that i only listened to once, and then one morning literally woke up before i even opened my eyes and had it stuck in my head. And i thought to myself, i haven't even heard that song enough times to have it stuck in my head like this.

I guess it was my mind just telling me i liked it, even though i don't want to. But why not like a good song? I think it has a nice meaning behind it. It makes sense at least, right?

Miley Cyrus, you spoke to me.

Stay The Night

Zedd always seems to have a song that comes out during the times of my troubles, that just speaks to me. It's a strange comfort. Makes me feel a mix of emotions.

The Way of the World

I'm reading this book for one of my classes, and there's a story that one of the characters in the book told. It's a little bit long to write out, but basically the moral of the story is that "goodness is often repaid with badness." It's really that that little story currently relates to my life. I had a group discussion the other day, i wrote a question about that short story, but at first it didn't occur to me how relevant it was till my little group discussed it out loud. It almost had me choke up.

Isn't that sad how that is "the way of the world"? That you could do everything, and be so good and kind hearted, yet you'll still get fucked over. And you'll think that you don't deserve that because you haven't done anything wrong. But that's just the way things are i guess. 

Pablo

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because i do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no i or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when i fall asleep your eyes close.
- Pablo Neruda

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I am frequently told, that if i'll be easily taken advantaged of if i'm too nice.

In the sense of love -- if i love too much, too deeply i can easily get hurt. But it wont be the normal type of hurt that feels like your heart shattered and broke. It'll hurt more than that because you loved too much.

There's a saying something along the lines of, "the hottest love has the coldest end." Something like that. I sort of remember there being a flame or fire involved. If anyone can think of it, please let me know! I had to try looking it up to be sure, and found the line i quoted is from a Drake song...lol, but i'm sure it was originally from somewhere else. Sounds about right though.

It makes enough sense. A love so strong, falls so hard.
If you put someone on a pedestal in your life, it makes it easier for them to walk all over you. It's easier for them to lose tract of their love for you, and take your love for granted.

Twisted

Till the end.

I'm going to stick this through the last second. And pretend everything is just perfect, till it's the end. I know it's coming, but instead of running away (like what most people would do) i think i want to stick it through till it's really the end. And enjoy every last moment, last drop of what this has been. I just want to embrace these last moments, and remember us for what we were. I want to just capture our essence together, because once it's over, i know that'll be it. And then there will be no more us. No more we. No more of what we are.

Hoe

I don't understand people. Especially girls. Girls are suppose to act as ladies. They're suppose to know the difference from right or wrong. At least they should know better than a guy should. How in the fucking world, can a girl think it's okay to come onto a guy that has a lady. How can she just let herself do such a thing, when she knows and sees that he has someone. Fucking slut. Fucking hoe. Fucking bitch. How could you?

That's just so nasty, and so shameful. That's not classy. And it's so poor mannered of a lady to do. You're a fucking skank if you were to do such a thing. Cause you really know you're a damn hoe if you can come onto a man when you know he's with someone. And you're really a big fucking hoe, when you can go about with liking his pictures that he posts with his lady in it. Like what the fuck is wrong with your fucking head. Have you no dignity of yourself?

You're a nasty ass fucking horny bitch. Go buy a fucking dildo. Don't be home wrecking people's relationships.

Opinions

I understand that everyone has their own opinions. Of course, right? And i completely respect everyone's opinion on whatever subject matter...to an extent at least. I mean, i can respect if you and i have different out takes on whatever it may be. I can respect you, unless you disrespect me...

I don't mind if we bump heads, and we're at a disagreement. I can listen, and try to understand where you're coming from. At least i'm doing that much. I will listen with open ears, and an open mind. Not be completely closed minded to my own opinion. It is possible that i may even agree a little on what you may have to say. Because you may have made a good point. But then don't diss me when i still decide to stand ground to my own thoughts. Understand?

It is important to realize everyone has their own say to things. You can't control someone's thoughts, or actions. It is important to respect someone's decision in what they want to do. I mean, even if you don't entirely agree on that decision, it isn't really your place to dictate whether they're wrong or right in living their life however they feel fits. In the end, if that decision ends up being a bad one, well then that will be their mistake to make and learn from.

At the very least, respect one another in every way possible. At the very least, be open minded, and allow for your friends to make the "faulty" decisions they choose to make. What if this decision turns out to be a good one in the long run, you never know. Say what you want to say, but try and be respectful about it. Your honest opinion does matter, but know where the limit is. Know where you should stop being honest about how you feel about certain things. Then at the very least, if you've gone to far with what you've said...just apologize, please.

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