Settled in

Just finished moving yesterday. Unpacked and everything and now i'm pretty much settled in.

I'm starting to get used to this moving thing. Haha, cause it doesn't really feel like anything. I still hate the idea of relocating though. It's pretty gay shit. And i'm only bouta be here for a few months and my family and i will be on the move again. What the hell man! Well actually, i hope its soon because then i'll get to be close to my baby. Teehee. As for now, i'm just here and close to whoever that lives around here. Which is actually a shit lot of people. SJ people, hit me up one time! :)

I think the reason it isn't really doing much to me because i can drive now. So its not like i'll never get to see people from Fremont again. I can just hop into my car, and drive over there. Not really that far i guess if i think about it. Just lightweight gay if i was trying to go down there a lot, i'd have to drive there all the time. That shit gets tiring.

Except for the next three weeks, i'm going to have to wake up early and drive down to Fremont anyways to go to school. I guess that's cool. I stayed home from school today, so i didn't even go to Fremont. So strange! I'll experience that drive tomorrow. :x

So i didn't go to school today, because i didn't complete my essay...which reminds me, i still haven't finished it. Gosh my mind is seriously turned off right now. I'll get to it after i write this blog though. Anyways, i didn't go to school today.

Lisa came over to see my place. We ended up going to the mall.

Funny thing happened today too. I got a job today and i didn't even intend on it! It's a funny, great thing. Its funny because Lisa and I totally just got hired on the spot. We walked into Aldos Shoe store in the Great Mall to look at shoes, and as we walked out the manager asked us if we needed a job and if we were interested in working there. So why not, right? I mean we did need a job. We filled out the application and gave it to him. I was expected him to say something along the lines of "great, i'll look over the application and give you a call for a interview", but instead he asked us to come in later tonight so we could get started on paper work and training. O_O Wthell...we just agreed and waked away pretty mind blown. We weren't really sure if we just got hired or not.

Well we showed up later and yup, we got hired. We filled out more paper work, got our employee number and everything. How easy...he must have really needed workers. But sweet! I'm now employed. Lets hope this goes well.

I have an interview tomorrow too for Jamba Juice. Hmm...what to do. Should i just work two jobs, or what?

Brighter Days

Things are starting to get better for me. I mean, they have been better for my a while now. By better i mean, i've been happy. No sad days, no frustrations (maybe just a little bit), no...nothing really. Just plain nice days. Everyday is a good day, and i don't even remember the last time i cried.

I've been in a great mood and mindset lately that i haven't even felt the need to drink or smoke.

So, that's really good! I just realized that right now when i was going through tumblr and someone posted up a post that said "I would like to be drunk right now". I was just thinking to myself, gosh i remember when i wish i could have a smoke and a beer just so i can calm myself down. Damn, those times. I remember. Even though...it was probably a few months ago.

Here's to the brighter days. :)

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Sentimental

He's sentimental, and thinks about the little things that even i didn't even bother to think about.

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Daniel Bedingfield | If You're Not The One

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Falling for a friend

I'd say that developing feelings for your friend is a risky, dangerous thing to do. It's something that people tend to avoid, but if it were to happen there isn't anything you can do about it because you can't control your emotions. The thing with falling for your friend is that you two were probably friends for a while. You got to know that person on a deeper level. You guys are probably comfortable with each other and talking to them is just awesome. This person is your good friend. Someone who you're real close to, and trust completely. (Maybe..)

Its risky though, to fall for this person. What do you do? Once you developed feelings, you're stuck in a dilemma. Either you ignore your feelings, or you act upon them. The problem with acting upon your feelings is that, what if they don't feel the same way. What if to them, you two are just friends. If that's the case, it wouldn't be a good idea to let them know...

However, what if you can't ignore your feelings because it just torturing to see them with someone else. Or maybe you really just don't want to live your life wondering "what if..."

Unless you ignore the feelings, and just pretend its not there, then the friendship between you two is probably going to crumble.

I don't know.

It sucks losing friends.

Sunol Hiking

So i went hiking on Sunday...

Went with my Brother, his girl, and my niece.

It was pretty nice, since i didn't go to the gym the whole week prior to Sunday.

Hella hot though. Perfect tanning opportunity, but i didn't even think about wearing shorts. Frankly, i don't think i wanted to wear shorts when i went hiking. Swear though, i could've gotten a light tan. I got a faint sports bra tan though. Ugly, but good thing its hella light.

Our destination was Little Yosemite. I think that's what it was. Well we got to this nice little river or whatever. It was so nice and refreshing to step in the water after hiking in the sun. We had a little picnic over here. :)

For some reason my brother really wanted to take pictures of our feet with all the little pebbles. Look at my cute toes! Hehe. Lilac nail polish. :3

Oh and we saw horses. :p

So overall, it was nice.

That's all i have to say.

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Flustered

Swear i'm liking you more and more each day. Heh. ♥

Baby came over today cause he wanted to work on his project.

I was offering to go to his place cause he always drives here to see me, but he said his internet didn't work so he had to come here. He came by and i sat here watching him work on it. Yah, i was bored to death. I picked at my nails as i watched him. Contemplated on whether or not i should paint my nails as i wait or not. I wonder why i didn't. I just sat there and watched.

Still wondering why he would just come here to sit in my living room for days doing nothing.

Crazy kid. Well he said he rather be bored with my than by himself. TRUEE THAAT.

If he didn't come by, i would have taken a longass nap. I didn't even go to the gym today.

Oh my goodness, slippen on that shit. Fuck, gotta get back to doing that. I might start going by myself...i think my trainer is about to bail on me. Shit.

Anyways, Lisa and Hoang decided to drop by. It seemed awkward for baby because he didn't say much when they came. Oh well. HAhah.

Blahblahblah....

So baby left, and he asked me to his Prom. :)

Apparently his internet wasn't down. He just couldn't go through with the asking if i was at his house. Really didn't see this one coming...

He has been telling me about this decal that he got custom made for his car. I mean it was whatever to me, cause i can totally see him just going off and making a custom sticker for his car. Well he was telling me he went and got it today and as he was about to leave he asked me if i wanted to go out and see it. Like i said...i didn't expect anything. I mean i didn't think he would have asked me. I don't know why, i just didn't think he would. Haha. Well i was in a pretty good mood, so i didn't think much of it. I just wanted to see his sticker. Well i go over to the side of his car and on the side of his front window was "Prom?". Apparently he got that custom made. Shit i felt like an idiot for falling for it.

The fact that he did it all so smoothly and caught me so off guard like that, made it the cutest asking ever. I hate him for tricking me.

I don't even care for Prom, but how nice is it that i'm bouta go with someone i actually like? Pretty nice, if i must say.

This was a very good Monday.

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Family and Baby

Baby came over again earlier.

My mother wanted to see him. Not meet him, just see him. Strange, but of course my mom wouldn't really try to talk to him. But that's how you know my mom's a judgmental bitch, and i mean that in a nice way. I'm just describing her as a judgmental bitch. DONT GET ME WRONG! I fucking love my mom. I'm saying that in a humor, sarcastic kind of tone...so try to imagine me saying that "My mom is a judgmental bitch" in that tone that i just described.

Well it's the truth though actually. Bahah. She's hella judgmental. Judges you off your looks, the way you dress, the way you talk, and what school youre going to. Mhmmm.

So my mom simply just wanted to see what baby looked like so she can see if he's good enough to hang around me. Well fuck. I didn't want her to see him because well he doesn't fit anything my mom would hope to see in a guy that i would ever talk to.

Lets go down the checklist, shall we?

Asian? - No

Mission? - No. In fact he goes to what you may say is the opposite of Mission. He goes to the school where my mom once dropped me off at for summer school and said how all the kids here are so ghetto with their slick back hair and baggy clothes looking like they're from the hood. Where she said that you wouldn't find anyone looking like this at my school.

Innocence? - No. He just doesn't look innocent like me. That's all. Look at me, i'm an angel. :p

Dresses like a "good boy" ?- Well i personally don't think theres anything wrong with the way he dresses but i bet my momma is going to say that she doesn't like the way he dresses

Well my mom never really asks to meet guys i talk to. I brought my ex over one time back then so i guess she "saw" him and approved without really saying much about it to me directly. She actually called me this time and even asked me about baby this time. For the first time ever she asked "So whose your new boyfriend, i want to meet him." I kind of flipped out for a bit because i'm hella afraid she's going to disapprove. She insisted though. She said she can't be at peace until she sees who this guy is.

I guess. Mothers will be mothers.

She said, "You better take care of yourself. He's going to end up hurting you, ruining your life and leaving you to be miserable by yourself." LOL. Oh my goodness, way to be so pessimistic. Oh and this was before she saw him. Well she's just watching out for me, like mothers should. But hey, looks like she knows the dirty tricks and games that guys play. Nice. Kudos to her.

Gosh i was hella nervous. Mostly because i knew she just wanted to see him and not even talk to him. Cause just by that, you know she's bouta judge him and make up some lameass excuse of why i shouldn't see him...and she doesn't even know him like that.

My sister saw him, and i went to ask her. "Does he look bad" (something like that, i don't quiet remember) And she said, "It doesn't matter, it's not about the looks!" Yah, that's right. But not according to my mom. Its about presentation. That's the way you look, dress, and talk. Yup. Then her boyfriend said, "Well does he go to the same school at least?" and i said, "Nope." He responded jokingly saying, "WHAT? NOT THE SAME SCHOOL? O:"

Lol...

Hella curious about what my mom thinks...i already have a feeling that she's scared for me. I have a feeling she has negative thoughts, and no matter how much i try and tell her he's good she's just going to tell me that i better pray long and hard for god to keep me safe, because guys may look like they're nice and good, but they're just going to ruin you. Gosh my mom sure has been through a lot...i bet she has. Came from Vietnam and she still knows how the game works. Gosh i never felt so much closer to my mom. If only she knew that i had the same mentality as she did. LOL. Well just not as intense. Damn.

Baby stayed for hella days. I'm really surprised he's okay with just sitting in my living room going through tumblr for four hours straight. Shit got boring fast, but i don't even have a T.V. I feel bad for him that i'm stuck inside my house all the time. I try and make it work to go out and see him though. Sigh. The life of a teenage Vietnamese girl, with strict parents. It's tough.

I really hope my mom doesn't bash on him though. That'll crush me. Wont stop me though.

Hell no it wont. Fingers crossed though that she'll be lenient with this. She's been trippin a lot lately because she knows i've been talking to someone. Now she's probably going to trip more.

That's the downside of liking someone who actually likes you back. My mom has something more to worry about, which means i'm probably even more on a leash than i usually am.