Diet: Day 17

I started a diet with my boyfriend at the beginning of this year on January 4th. We didn't start exactly on January 1st because i wanted one last weekend to indulge.

This diet is basically keeping track of the foods i eat to hit my "macros". Which are the proteins, carbs, and fats that i intake daily. We found my maintenance level which is at 1700 calories a day. This maintenance level is how much i consume each day to maintain the weight that i'm at. (Sounds like a no brainer actually.) With that, i have a limit of how much grams of proteins, carbs, and fats i can have within that 1700. And i will have to eat exactly that much proteins, carbs, and fats, but can not exceed the amount set.

The fact that it's said that i can basically eat whatever i want sounds like it could be a cake walk. First couple of days of dieting, i found that it wasn't too bad. I am now on day 17 of my diet and i'm finding that it is not at all the case.

Sure i can eat whatever i want...but if what i want contains high amount of fat/protein/carbs, then the rest of the day i'm very limited to what i can eat. Sure i can eat whatever i want, but i can't eat whenever i want. I really have to time when i eat. I can't just snack at my leisure. Every.Single.Thing. that i put into my body has to be "tracked" down into my eating log. Little snacks means fats and carbs. Fats and carbs that are eaten means that my ratio of fats, carbs, and protein ratio will be off. Which means, later when i may have to consume a large amount of protein with a small amount of carbs (i.e rice and chicken).

It seems to be complicated sometimes when i have to explain to them. It sounds like a lot of work. I have never been one to go to these extremes. I have dieted last year, to just look good in Vegas. I ate whatever i wanted within reason. There was a lot of self control, as there is for any type of diet. I stayed away from sweets and watched what i ate. It wasn't too hard then. In the end, i had good results. I was happy.

This is a whole different diet altogether, and i have to say that i am on the verge of losing it and giving up. Sometimes i get moody. The fact that i can't eat fruit whenever i please (because it means carbs) upsets me. I can't REALLY eat whatever i want.

My mind may need some more time adjusting.

Reasons why i'm not giving up:
1. I have started this and i want to go through with it, with the best of my ability. Till it completely breaks me and i have some type of break down. That's when i will quit. But i haven't reached that point yet, so i believe i should keep going.
2. I really want to see the outcome of this, because according to my bf if i continue with this diet i won't have to do cardio. I hate cardio.
3. I could end up looking hella sexy, so it'll all be worth it IF i make it till the end.
4. No pain, no gain?

I just want a chalupa right now and some potato chips. Also boiling crab. But...yah.

Toodles ~